EAT MY WASH! :)

2011-12-02T10:12:00.007+08:00

She's sitting at the table, the hours get later
He was supposed to be here
She's sure he would have called
She waits a little longer, there's no one in the driveway
No one's said they've seen him
Why, is something wrong?
She looks back to the window
Suddenly the phone rings
A voice says something's happened
That she should come right now
Her mind goes to December
She thinks of when he asked her
He bent down on his knees first
And he said

I want you forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together
Forever and always

She pulls up to the entrance
She walks right to the front desk
They lead her down a million halls, a maze that's never ending
They talk about what happened but she can barely hear them
She tries to keep a straight face as she walks into the room
She sits by his bedside, holds his hand too tight
They talk about the kids they're gonna have and the good life
The house on the hillside, where they would stay

Stay there forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together, and always remember
Whether rich or for poor or for better
We'll still love each other, forever and always

Then she gets an idea and calls in the nurses
Brings up the chaplain and he says a couple verses
She borrows some rings from the couple next door
Everybody's laughing as the tears fall on the floor
She looks into his eyes, and she says

I want you forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together, and always remember
Whether happy or sad or whatever
We'll still love each other, forever and always
Forever and always, forever and always

She finishes the vows but the beeps are getting too slow
His voice is almost too low
As he says, I love you forever, forever and always
Please just remember even if I'm not there
I'll always love you, forever and always

2009-08-01T19:02:00.001+08:00

from hiatus

Artist: David Cook
Album: David Cook
Title: I Did It for You

Today's not the same
As every day
It's far from ordinary
The pain I endure
You're my cure
But my mistakes have led me
Far away from you...

You turn away
From all those things
That I've been trying to say
And all those promises
I shouldn't have made
I did it for you

My open mind
Feelings I just can't reconcile
My heart's on a string
These broken wings
You knew I'd be so fragile
Far away from you...

You turn away
From all those things
That I've been trying to say
And all those promises
I shouldn't have made
I did it for you

I searched my soul
And all these feelings
That I can't control
And you're the one thing
That can make me whole
I did it for you

Try to let you know
Try to let you know
Try to let you know...

Today is not the same
As everyday
It's far from ordinary...

You turn away
From all those things
That I've been trying to say
And all those promises
I shouldn't have made
I did it for you

Oh I searched my soul
And all these feelings
That I can't control
And you're the one thing
That can make me whole
I did it for you...
I did it for you...
I did it for you...

You're the one thing that can make me whole
I did it for you...

-
iap had been crazy.
i swear too many things had happened.
who would have gusss ..

2009-06-06T16:16:00.000+08:00

Come Back To Me- David Cook

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you're leaving as you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm here whenever you need me I'll wait for you

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

Take your time, I won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

Oh and I'll let you go, I'll set your free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul there
I can't face you, I can't save you
It's something you'll have to do

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me
Come back to me

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

You find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me
-

work tomorrow. yawns.

2009-05-08T20:34:00.002+08:00

i swear life is bloody unfair and bias.
to certain, females. that is.

period.

2009-04-23T22:10:00.004+08:00

i am so bloody fucking sleepy.
and bloody sian with watsoever.
but i like this job.

so i wont complain.

anw wrote this during incubation and i was totally 'holy cow-ing' when my industrial sup saw me writing this. zz.

Looking around seeking for what's mine.
there's nothing that can interest or dumbfound me
Nothing reveals, nothing unfolds
Here i am sitting aoone as i watch the world pass me by

work seems inspiring hor.

2009-04-12T16:06:00.001+08:00

last night was ..
still feel so puck-y till now

but i was thinking ..

2009-04-07T02:49:00.000+08:00

If only someone understands what i am thinking and feeling.

2009-04-03T04:10:00.002+08:00

if everything was everything but everything is over.

2009-03-28T03:12:00.002+08:00

i saw,

better source the journals for my report
citations and references.
Rahh so many, so lazy =(

2009-03-28T00:52:00.003+08:00

i swear i was stunned for that 50 seconds
i thought i am over and done with, the phase of studying in NGEE ANN POLY!?
why DDD and BMP?!

SHEESH!

but i mean if i have to stay on to 'strengthen' my gpa. i dont mind. (well actually, hahaha =X ) piang eh =/
i think they send to the wrong person too eh.
cause my proj sup' not that ling ah chui. maybe thats my IAP sup?
ok better not think so much.

i feel like typing more since i seldom blog and since i am at this space now.
i have been...
- working
- slacking
- sleeping till damn late (i like! and jessica dont jealous)
- doing REPORT :D (ehh a little is also counted)
aiya just been nuaing my ass off
till attachment starts.
hope i will get to go to Lonza, Sam tahan 2-3 more weeks! i will take th bus with you! no more _____ =X
i miss hannah pin val and gay faggot (dhuha)
i miss cher and sam. disturbing sessions are good!
damn i miss alot of things.

but,
there's only 1 thing which i want supp-ber badly but aie wont get one lar.

2009-03-16T01:21:00.007+08:00

mike and the mechanics

Looking back over my shoulder
I can see that look in your eyes
I never dreamed it could be over
I never wanted to say good bye

Looking back over my shoulder
With an aching deep in my heart
I wish we were starting over
Oh, instead of drifting apart

Everybody told me you were leaving
Funny I should be the last to know
Baby please tell me that I'm dreaming
I just never want to let you go

Looking back over my shoulder
I can see that look in your eyes
Tearing my heart over and over
I never wanted to say goodbye

I don't mind everybody laughing
But it's enough to make a grown man cry
Cause I can feel it slipping through my fingers
I don't even know the reason why

whistle

Every day it's a losing battle
Just to smile and hold my head up high
Could it be that we belong together?
Baby, won't you give me one more try

couldnt sleep and i was watching The Bachelor season 13, starting from the final episode yes spoiler i know. but walan the feeling of while and after watching, damn dui and dulan pls.

this guy is one fucker. i think even the word f'er seems to be a polite word to apply for such a ____y and! that reminds me of :D (right!)

not my prob. why so affected by one show? tsk.

2009-03-10T22:28:00.005+08:00

Grandpa was talking to me this afternoon

GP " when going uni? and how long will you be studying?"

Me " if aust will be 1 year. but if other uni[s], 3 years"

GP " if anything happens to me while you're studying aboard. it's alright. no need to come back s'pore. i understand. just study hard. promise me"

rooted there with blank thoughts

2009-03-05T00:23:00.001+08:00

my future seems bleak.
it's too late for regrets.

exhausted and confused. what's left in me?
what've i proven?
nothing.

2009-03-01T11:30:00.004+08:00

since i have some stamina left of me,
this' week was terrible
screw up body clock. brain block etc
but heck its over :D
drinking session after paper (there were more alcohol than this. Tsk, right sam? =x) and you shld see teck sam and wq expression when they sat the G-max

this was before proteo paper. ahh studied from 10am to 8pm. exhausted till we tried all ways to understand and memorise our notes =/ me and cher will be so dead for overseas uni ahh.

F INAC no more!!

anyway my ladies sam and cher will be gone tmr.
why am i starting attachment so much later?!
even phin and michelle starting this wenesday WTF
srsly damn bloody sian i cant start IAP with them thanks to someone.
fuck.

on a brighter note,
timbre'ed yesterday with nigel and cindy was good.
th live band was awesome.
and eh, yesterday was the first time in my 21 years,
drinking and finishing, long island tea. damn sua ku :/

2009-02-19T23:52:00.009+08:00

i always wonder.

how could students sit so still for more then an hour studying,
not feeling the strain/ pain at their ass'es and lower back(s)

ponders.

Finally found my genre of song. ahh relaxing and satisfying.
Leona Lewis -Run
Duffy -Warwick Avenue
p.s i studied proteo with these songs on repeat. sheesh.

All I want is, To find an easier way,To get out.

a way to kill bored' living souls. a sneak peek,

i wonder =X (so dead) aha!

2009-02-16T23:54:00.003+08:00

like i said a zillion times, final chance.

damnnn.

won't somebody help me
'cause I don't feel too strong

2009-02-13T01:08:00.006+08:00

shall slowly finish my way up the education ladder.
admired every student who presented so confidently to the externals,
lots of hardwork and effort they place in.

everything looks so near to the end yet the amount of effort and strength required to sustain this journey's torturious and never ending.
damn it.i dont wanna eat SIM tom yum ban mian for the next few years

2009-02-09T22:41:00.004+08:00

just fuck it.
seriously.

2009-02-07T03:12:00.001+08:00

hmm.

HAHA!

2009-02-04T00:27:00.006+08:00

i dint know shira reads blog haha! thanks babe for popping by.
ay, proteo prac today was..
no sam (lab partner). babeee leave me alone to die only :(
no gloria to talk nonsense with. why quit so fast hur.
no shira wan hui hannah pin to talk to. depressing seh, in school.

everyone is either rushing internal/external Or IAP reports.
i'm still dong FYP reportt. damn it please.
so many owing projects, presentations (arent they th same?)
and tests and and exams
gawd. INAC shld just be removed. common test2 was..
i think i will whine round 2 when i am doing IAP.
i shld stop and just shut up.
and get back to my work.

oh sidetrack. i have no idea why but i read this,
The Great Gift
The great gifts are like the one gift – the gift that began it all back there in Bethlehem of Judea. You can’t buy them, and they’re not on anybody’s shopping list. They come as He came – quietly, freely, unexpectedly – and if you’re not careful, you’ll miss them entirely.

anyway i was finding whats a bear brick and:

ok i feel so noob. tsk.

oh and this's cute!

HAH! sadly not mine.

2009-01-30T03:10:00.003+08:00

this guy's fast.i clocked 4 1/2 rounds average speed 42km/hr.
this guy, lost count of how many rounds he went pls.

i miss aust man.
migrating sounds good but too many asians there.
also, i will lose everything back here.

to go or not? :/

2009-01-13T21:31:00.004+08:00

at Gym today, i saw:

2,cannot make it careless and stm to th max kidds. blur till take wrong socks zz.
wonder who these 2 are. mHMMm

2009-01-12T00:22:00.004+08:00

2008-12-15T03:32:00.002+08:00

i just fucking hate christmas and it's 'eve'

2008-12-05T02:39:00.006+08:00

i have'nt participated in BIBV and BSM proj(s) much
i feel lost and slow during FYP sessions
i think i am clueless about proteo thou i have kinda read a little least, every night before i sleep (bedtime story)
worst stil,
i think, feel, sense etc that INAC is sucking th bloody life outta me.

oh wells,
and there is something i feel like doing. but it has been awhile
there's so many things i wanna say
but its' so weird expressing out
random thoughts're always hovering around me
and as i wanna act towards it, i soon get distracted and somewhat lost that feel for it
seeing myself acting and behaving accordingly to routines and chores,
has made me somewhat lost within myself
seeing no one cares,
had made me a ignorant, selfish and naive kidd

life's a totally chaos screw up piece of shit that everyone fights for survival but still one day,
when we got to go, we have to go.
then,
it'll be pay back time.

i feel so random

edits :
was talking to jac. oh man. super old school convos! those pasts etc
yada yada till this sentence was brought up:
- pollutant - leaverightnow says:
no wonder.
- pollutant - leaverightnow says:
the girls there are mostly straight.
linN-ette says:
yea barely a curve ruler

haha. i really miss those days. 85, SAC.
weirdly i got to know you in th weirdest way
dont you think prod mgmt back then was one cool interesting shit? ((:
meet up when you are back in s'pore ((:

2008-11-30T00:47:00.003+08:00

i know i am like suppose to study. but cant help side-tracking heh.
watch this.

damn good luh!
sadly i cant even read notes now. forgotten.wtf.

trust yourself and believe

2008-11-16T01:54:00.005+08:00

caught the movie, Madagascar 2 and..

uber ear catching ((:

pop a chill pill.

2008-10-28T17:48:00.010+08:00

due to the cui-ness and paiseh-ness of babe and pin there will not be pictures in this post. wells.

was thinking.
it's been a long time since i had lab with both of them.
worth my time staying back today after proteo.
just slacking with them in the lab.
though quite emo nemo due to pin's song playing in the background

but,
really love the environment i'm at now
been a long time since i felt like that.
back in yr 1, perhaps

they doing their lab work.
me, ~~slacking and blog hopping~~ lit review journal.

p.s i saw this and i cant stop myself from copying and putting this here.
legend: red are those...... failed.

Course Structure for MBIO (taken from NPnet)

First-Year Modules

Second-Year Modules

Final-Year Modules

Level 1.1

·	Mathematics

·	Microbiology

·	Inorganic & Physical Chemistry

·	Physiology

·	Creativity & Applied Thinking Skills ^

·	Sports & Wellness ^

Level 1.2

·	Organic Chemistry

·	Cell Biology

·	Information Technology for the Life Sciences

·	Biostatistics

·	Individual & the Community ^

·	Communication Toolkit ^

Level 2.1

·	Applied Microbiology

·	Immunology

·	Cell Culture & Bioprocess Engineering

·	Agrotechnology & Plant Tissue Culture

·	Aquaculture

·	Any 2 Interdisciplinary Studies (IS) modules

Level 2.2

·	Biochemistry

·	Instrumentation & Analytical Chemistry

·	Molecular Biology

·	Bioinformatics

·	Innovation & Enterprise in Action ^

Level 3.1

·	Life Sciences Seminar Series

Genomics

·	Proteomics

·	Project A/B

·	Biotech Innovation & Business Ventures

·	Bioscience Sales & Marketing

·	Drug Discovery & Development

·	Biomanufacturing Practices

·	World Issues: A Singapore Perspective ^

·	Any 1 Interdisciplinary Studies (IS) module ^

Level 3.2

·	Industrial Attachment Programme

·	Project A/B

how long more to graduation?
look at how much time i have wasted. sigh.

2008-10-22T01:19:00.013+08:00

Sharen says:
i believe chee kok is very very smart now
Sharen says:
ur aim is to be a scientist
Sharen says:
do me proud

:(
i just really wish it was year 2004.
no one knows what the fuck i had been thru since' 05. i need to get back my fighting spirit, courage and determination. on my own.

2008-10-07T00:10:00.009+08:00

Superman -Five For Fighting

Just cant be the person everyone expects me to be. right?
I am an individual. Not a clone.

2008-09-29T00:31:00.008+08:00

he is th first yo! :))) on singapore soil too!
but if only,
Fernando Alonso(rejected Renault), Kimi Raikkonen, Felipe Massa and great legend, Michael Schumacher were here.
and all 4 representing Ferrari. power pack siol.

egg-cit-ding pls. this week has been car(s) and more cars.
damn my driving, f' it totally.

a weekend just passed. another one. and it continues.
my friends will all be gone, attachment.
thanks god hannah and pin babe remains.
but how long more?

some stuffs shldnt be occuring but, mistakes and un-confidence causes it.

2008-09-16T16:58:00.004+08:00

alrights, dint wanna be a bitch to yak about driving. but, it's making me mad.
totally. i am so bloody broke plus annoyed plus sian to th max to make my way there.
urgh

Attempt 1
thanks to an indian, i collected my very first experience of immediate failing. and i only had 10 points. zzz..

Attempt 2
kana a @#*% and thanks to the shit gear of car 223, massive lunch jam at eunos (route 6)
i collected 66 points.

Attempt 3
i had 223 AGAIN! and after 4 months, that bloody gear is still fucked.
went into balloting room. barely 30 seconds. first name balloted 'wong weiling linette' route 6!!
woah seriously :/ major jam during U-turn and back. thus, 20minustes route became, 1 hr 10 mins? half clutch till leg was nua plus numb. had a problem coming out and walking back to tester room. totally... -.- i rather run 2.4km.

shall not go into detail. ass annoying. but least now i only had 32 points. thanks arh for the discount..
anyway when i was stumbling out of the car, instructors were running to my car (i was wondering why) calling out and rushing to open his door " hi good evening Sir!" and i found out......
he is the chief tester. chehhh! need to 'por' so much nots?

sianxzxz to the max now.
yesterday results day, today driving test.
doesnt good news keep coming?!

one thing, happy birthday yitian. or shld i say phin? haha. but happy 19th! :))
and lets heck tht bastard, together! hoho!

2008-09-09T00:11:00.003+08:00

never would i thought, i would re-approach it once again.
what do people want from me?

i'm just me who provides nothing.
hanging ard, wont get you much.

2008-07-29T00:30:00.004+08:00

i know i'm an illegal :X

but,
cindy glenn caryn and nikki are my very first official passengers.
thanks glenn for trusting me with your baby.
and shiok ahh those fast angle turns! FUN!!?? :D

convo with pin->

linN-ette says:
unless they sell it in pink!?
Chrispin says:
lol
Chrispin says:
Astons arent really big actually..
Chrispin says:
and NO PINK PLEASE
Chrispin says:
it's like the ugliest colour ever invented in history

tsk tsk, sterotyping :p

2008-06-15T01:54:00.004+08:00

i will do anything..
~~fuck it~~

1) to play canoe polo at the river.
2) to..

2008-06-01T00:22:00.006+08:00

i saw,

i miss everything.
i miss polo-ing.

random: never drink during breaks.landing up sober in lectures.

2008-05-08T00:04:00.005+08:00

too lazy to create a new post. this'll do.

HAPPY 20th' BABE!
-
i am still wondering who did this. who ah!?!?!

i transferred and pasted it on my locker though. aha.

love this picture i took.
looks. professional.
well to me, least.

strength from desperation.
that mercs.

2008-04-21T22:55:00.006+08:00

the reason i'm blogging after a long hiatus' due to the fact that everything is killing me.

school = FYP + bstats + bchem + BIF

1)FYP's getting no where and i hope it gets somewhere.
bloody contaminations. and nice, i am th first (for this year) to have my name jotted down by all lecturers and it even appears in their staff room board.
reason being - i dint wear my lap coat and cover'ed shoes in th lab. and i got booked. what a dumb bitch shit.

2)b.stats - its graphs all days long and excel. omg. shitty-ness. and i cannot be late for 8am classes. damnit.

3)b.chem - i almost die in year 1 IPC i repeated OBC in year 2. i have no idea whats coming for me. i hope i can survive practicals even.

4)BIF. omg lets skip this.

so tht pretty sums up my poly life.
and it's only week one.

i'm good and i will be. prolly.

oh second reason for blogging.
wenesday.
die.
damn scary.
i dare not say anything but whatever outcome/ results i get i will accept it.

to feel better:

denyse's art in photography.

someone who is super disturbing + very violent (ok probably 1% nice) :x

2008-03-11T00:47:00.004+08:00

Dear God,
the only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away.

Avenged Sevenfold - Dear God

2008-02-29T19:19:00.006+08:00

this is freaking awesome.
travis barker THE MAN!! love him since secondary school.

bet after whacking those beats, his hands must've blister'ed.
2 sticks each hand. awesome, totally.

-
nabeh!
i knew BIF module will turn out this way.
bloody #$%^
ck. you have a friend joining you for bif. soon.

seriously tmd.

ard my neighborhood,

p.s co-incidence is god's way of being anonymous.

seriously still annoyed with R.P (prolly i shld write as R.I.P). screw bif. totally.

2008-02-26T01:39:00.012+08:00

i've got no idea what these words mean.
but it's for a change of th usual english words.

我不會怪你　對我的偽裝

天使在人間是該藏好翅膀
人們愚蠢魯莽　而妳纖細善良
怎能讓妳為了我被碰傷

小小的手掌　厚厚的溫暖
妳總能平復我不安的夜晚
不敢想的夢想　透過妳的眼光
我才看見它原來在前方

沒有誰能把妳搶離我身旁
妳是我的專屬天使　唯我能獨佔
沒有誰能取代妳在我心上
擁有一個專屬天使
我哪裡還需要別的願望

if only, life was this,

fun.

2008-02-18T17:25:00.005+08:00

feel like i'am a DNA undergoing synthesis.
transcribing 3' to 5' and back. 5' to 3'
being read by some RNA polymerase.(but in reality, its called humans.)

not that i am studying too hard till i am talking some science greek.
in fact mobio and immuno is wenesday and thurs respectively and, today i just touch on both. how efficient. but dr choy and dr lim are nice lecturers. better do well.

so. maybe its called the aftermath effect.
but lonely, th word i shld sub in.
hopefully by 4-6 months, brother'll be back.
not that i love th times when he's in singapore nor we are great siblings bt.
weird.
mother has been yelling her head off as usual but now towards only one target and thats,
me.
least when he is here. scoldings can be distributed and i dont have to be f'ed by them repeatedly.
plus no more hayabusa and CBR-400. no more lapak sessions.
i am like deprieved.

damn it. i feel like a pussy whinning.

i saw 2 of these at LSCT. another's white.
'beu-tee-ful'
pan europe 1100

2008-01-27T01:41:00.000+08:00

i agree with CK's blog.
totally.
-

this is good.
th song's from jay chou movie. whatever its title'd
but its also in super mario games.
interesting.

i miss my Zildjian drum sticks. its transparent!!! hundred over bucks gone!
thanks to spring cleaning. Tmd.

2008-01-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

Tell Her

I know how it feels
To wake up without her
Lying here all alone
Just thinking about her

I can't believe
Her hold on me
It's something indescribable
I know she knows
But won't you please

[Chorus:]
If you see my girl
Just tell her I miss her smile
Tell her I'm counting the minutes
Gonna see her in a little while
I know when she
Holds on to me
She's the one thing that I could never live without
Oh, oh, oh, oh
And tell her I love her

Oh yeah, just tell her I love her
The way that she moves
You know what it does to me
And when I catch her eye
I can hardly breathe

Still can't believe
Her hold on me
She's just so indescribable
I know she knows
But won't you please, please

Every time that I'm around her
I just go to pieces crashing tumbling to the ground
I'm so glad I found her
I know how it feels

Oh yeah, just tell her I love her
-

2008-01-18T00:13:00.000+08:00

that bitch i saw was so damn nice to those secondary school kids.
drama-mama

SACians came saw someone's gf eh! haha
but i am nice to bring them from bus stop to convention centre.
damn far please.
and, i was nice to hail a cab and told th cab where to go.
see! so friendly.

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me

He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way
By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
Rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today

With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

2008-01-14T00:11:00.000+08:00

went Singapore Concert Hall. for pin's concert.
saw yang! my damn old secondary school senior playing for CO alumni.
realised i only like certain gene of chinese instrumental music.
and seriously the 2 guys in front are super inconsiderate. unappreciative.

but whatever it is, its been long since i went there.
i miss doing sound i miss doing lighting i miss doing backstage work.
i miss saying 'mike check, 1 ,2 3' (damn lame please)
i miss playing catching with kim around th entire building when SAC CO're having rehearsals for SYF back there. i miss going for weekly supper with her too. teh peng at lao pa sat. and i miss scaring people at those quiet corridors at SCH =/
KIMBERLY! IF YOU ARE READING THIS. I KNOW YOU ALSO MISS THOSE TIMES TOO! HAHA KNS! HUGE BIG FAT BULLY! ONLY I CAN BULLY YOU HEHEH! AIYA BUT I AM SO NICE. YOU'LL LOVE ME TO BITS AND WONT EVEN TOUCH ME RIGHT!? =X

period.
-

only they do. some do. and of course my old friends do.
and it was expected.

2008-01-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

oyes. wanna thnks those who wish me on th 24dec.
sorry if i dint reply.
as i dint receive.
overseas reception suck terribly.

but still, thnks once again.
espeically han and pin babe.

-
Fix You - Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

i swear this is th best class ever.
sadly. i am an ass who keeps repeating modules.
now. things are so distant.

2007-12-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

4th jan'08.
overnight canoe polo :)
with them.

i miss ,

cp.

no one understands'.
forget it.

"If You're Not The One"- Daniel Bedingfield

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know whatthe future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

19th,us.
bye 07'

2007-12-18T21:41:00.000+08:00

there're more but lazy.
look at michelle face for all! hahaha! shit damn funny pls!

'christmas dinner' nice seh! with whiney

i wannnntttttt! stupid bummy. =X 'mummy i want bunneyy!'

prove tht i still self train. (ok only tht second)

last but not least. a day ended well.
cindy was suupose to kick me and me kicking michelle. and it ended up =/

ok.

2007-12-13T12:56:00.000+08:00

whenever i talk to you guys.
not only i miss those times but also
i miss those freedom.

13 yrs of friendship (=

-
smart ass eh,
Faculty of Life Science in NUS.
double major in Maths and Stats!

ZAI! i will look for you next semester!

2007-12-10T21:39:00.000+08:00

Mind Over Body.

yea. when u're on th verge of breaking down
with sweaty hands thumping heartbeat teary/watery eyes cold feet/hands
and a blank mind.

remind urself tht,once more.

2007-12-08T23:36:00.001+08:00

my first virgin chinese song tht kept replaying.

haha.

oh and this!
worth ur time and ears.

i bet u need a grade 5 and above to play. haha cause i cant play it myself =S

ok .. suppose to be studying.
=X

2007-12-08T00:59:00.000+08:00

one of th JC's in th east, canoeing training's damn slack.

-

not sleeping. its called,
being deep in thoughts and stress thinking especially susan lee's class.

aw, classical picture. before things changed.

captainball. we gotton 3rd siol!
no ball slipped this time round! just tht i am just still..

too short.

i am going to die soon from studying.
totally very very veryyyyyy, exhausted.
pin! test me again! i can!

2007-12-07T01:31:00.000+08:00

try studying from 9am -10pm.
having lunch break alone.

srsly. if i fail my common test. i am beyond hope.
but then again, i never pass before.

Im not crazy
I know what im getting myself in
I wanna live with you
If thats okay with you

mhmmm.

2007-12-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

for people who disturbs me daily! hur!
i dont knw why it sounds nicer on u-tube but on denyse mp3 (and th rest singing).
my goosebumps rise.
like totally risen.

-

omgawd. drain.

LSCT captains' ball and i realised it was so closed yet damn far.
yes if only (all th if only) i dint let th ball slipped outta my hand prolly it will be 20 - 12. instead of 11 -12 . shit.
now i know my 'forte' in cp.

whatever.
campus run with leong and cindy.
i almost died. michelle still can say 'no lar i dont run very fast.' =/
ehh. i havent been running since i stop (stop) my cca.
so u can imagine i almost died. (it was like th first time i ran campus) and th sun was hotttt!

one netballer one dragonboater and.
one. die lar next yr 2.4km. tsk.

2007-12-03T21:52:00.000+08:00

took 75, past SGH, singapore forensic medicine.
linette,
dream on.

frosted dreams.

maybe my future lies there.
shall see.
but i love mugging at bucks there.

business/ accountancy trade are just too overwhelming for me to handle.

happy 19th ski. 17th jolene quek.

2007-11-28T23:37:00.001+08:00

nice chill out session with old bud. thts great life (=
more drinks alright. but hopefully wont be tht sober =X
talking sessions memories sessions etc.

oyes before tht..
after MOBIO lecture. went library alone to study for 2 hrs plus.
guess what!
yea i slept for like 1 hr 45 mins =/ and study 5 slides. 2 lines plus plus. wth.
i could hardly open my eyes during lecture whats more in the library alone!?
and.
did i mention when i do driving. my eyes almost shut too. at the traffic light area.
shit . i sleep just too much. plus th weather these days. (ms wee i knw u'll agree)

york feng basket hoops soon! with lydia and phoenix if possible!
prolly will ask (you knw who) to come and catch us! HAHAHAHA (evil smirks =X)

2007-11-28T01:49:00.000+08:00

time(s) i want and yearn.

and,
now..

i am stuck here.

fcuk.

enchanted, jerzel
Disenchanted - My Chemical Romance

2007-11-25T21:06:00.000+08:00

gona be my attitude till december.

sorry to use your picture.
hope you wont mind.
anyway, we will do well for our papers (=

2007-11-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

i know i am supporse to study!
but you-tube is so entertaining! GAWD!
watch this,

dumb but i shld do tht to improve my co-ordination! hah!

-

valentino rossi!!!

2007-11-24T18:29:00.000+08:00

can i carry on with my bike liscene PLEASE! (sponsorship?)
hayabusa?
awww =(
-

while stoning at singapore river.
with ms wee. (for a while)

felt damn weird. no training. woke up late and my body felt so nua. like totally.
went bucks. tried reading my notes but. i was like .. wtf.
feeling so lethagic.

hopefully, one day,
just one day.
i, we, (devlin's) get to play here.
we can and we will.
SRRR'07 '08.
one day.

2007-11-22T20:52:00.000+08:00

who wanna get this baby for me? =X

-
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years

saw my sec 3-5 form teacher.
ms j.lim along bukit timah road. at KAP/rifle range area.
with those sec1 2 guides and other teachers.
join'ed them and walked to adam's rd for lunch.
(surprisingly, my stamina lasted thoughout th walk! haha! must be th campus runs!)
talked about some stuffs along th way.
yup, things are changing but goo'ld stuffs are held in memories.

soon (:

-
"if you had one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip? "

You can do anything you set your mind

2007-11-20T22:50:00.000+08:00

reach home at 7 plus. wanted to wake up at 8.30pm to do report and bioinfo.
set alarm(s) 8.18pm 8.27pm 8.32pm 8.48pm. etc.
guess what time i woke up?!

10.30pm! wtf!?
ok. shit, sorry abe. abt the report.

2007-11-18T19:44:00.000+08:00

whenever i come home from training. i am too tired to flip my notes.
i just cant cope. shit.
wanna go self gym but i was always busy. (like my 5 hrs break on tues. spent on driving instead) never gona improve on anything cause i cant find time commitment. crap.

i need more stamina. gona run run runn heck my ankle. but i am gona nail running!
for games.
oyes. and today! yes after 19 yrs of living.my very nice mother, bother to tell me tht i suffer frm breathing problem. thanks ah! after 19 years and 8 months in cp! u tell me i have tht.
actually if u guys wonder breathing prob. interesting fact, when i listen to my ipod at blasting level. i will have difficulty breathing. serious! check tht out frm me next time. thts why i am a peaceful person =)

ok whatever.
i wanna see improvement in whatever i do.
studies and canoe polo esp!

~~that vice life, which i..~~

2007-11-13T23:14:00.000+08:00

during immuno tutorial,

th expiring GL. th netballer. th most studious one. th chao da aunty.

2007-11-11T23:37:00.000+08:00

ok, this is funny.
attention focus, weiyen.

whats' poly life without them? (((:

2007-11-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

who's that lucky someone?

'Cause I don't care if I ever talk to you again.
This is not about emotion,
I don't need a reason not to care what you say,
Or what happened in the end.
This is my interpretation,
And it don't, don't make sense'

-
airport swensen to celebrate bro's belated birthday
anyway noticed this young primary school boy. was playing along the sides of the steps tht flows water?
he was picking up stones and rethrowing it into the water.
(ok if i were him i will play like tht too, given the chance)
people behind me were like talking about tht boy.
but one which i heard,
'the boy has no proper upbringing and parental guidence.'
i was like ehh.
i mean alright his parents shld look after him and not let him be so playful.
but why blame his upbringing?
he's only a hyper active child. he still has lots to learn and shld be guided.
not immediately be blame. give him a chance and not shoot him until like tht lar.

owells.

2007-11-07T00:40:00.000+08:00

take back my words,
i'll work hard. (in everything)

-

look's who wasting food =X

2007-11-04T20:27:00.000+08:00

buddies for life (:
thanks for th friendship pencil and donuts!

2007-11-02T23:11:00.000+08:00

to,
(you know who you're)

i am very sorry i commented, blog sucha thing. i have already deleted it.
it was all in the past and you dint do anything to deserve what i commented actually.
prolly i was harsh tht time and i was exgerrating the (past) problem, situation.
it's seriously not your fault as you did nothing.
and i apologise for my actions.

2007-11-02T00:36:00.000+08:00

let me miss my dad like how you miss your's

tired.
school training driving.

2007-10-30T00:27:00.000+08:00

Sometimes When We Touch - Dan Hill

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

so.......
cheesy!?
~~almost~~

2007-10-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

i knew weiyen will tag. haha. i dint say anything =X
anyway had this quote frm sa.

boredom spares me from 3 evils,
Boredom, Vices, Needs

some'll get it. some'll not,

-
not drunk. unlike those who get high easily. tsk,

me(confidently):uncle, can i have a COKE icecream!?! PLEASE!

sy:aiya. vodka ice cream better!

ehh.

2007-10-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

Life's Great!

f'yea right.

:(

2007-10-21T23:06:00.000+08:00

YOU WILL NEVER DO OR SAY THINGS RANDOMLY.

2007-10-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

he walked aimlessly. and stumbled upon a well. was this pre-planned? he has no idea. sometime ago, he has no idea how long ago either.after that evaporation of faith into emptyness, and what seemed like an eternity of self-stuggle, he looked into that well. pitch-black it was, a bottomless pit he reckoned.

he was made to enter it, by virtue of pre-arrangement or however it was made to be.down he went and he landed. all was dark and silent. he shouted, but nothing seems to be heard admidst the vacant, non-sensical hustle and bustle. and not even a slight reverberation felt against its walls, despite that being the sole significance of its existance.

slavery, a term that denotes the unwilling service to what we call dictatorship, is the only thing prominent there. or that is what the commoners there perceive it to be. but as to what he would expect in the coming months, it seems as though a thick shroud forming almost instantly every time he tries to get his mind off those cruel hallucinations. and a veil seems cast over that massive infrastucture of a well, making escapism, which was the only way out to survival, insurmountable as well.

gone were the days of his once fairytale life. he came from what was like a village, even he himself couldnt describe it. there lived a overly-nice village leader, or maybe when compared to that well's counterpart, it was like worlds apart. previously, he enjoyed a form of liberty, and any form of punishment meted out was less than harsh, and definitely reasonable. he had wonderful friends there, of bonds formed through the different adventures he endured through. sad he was, when it was time he had to leave that haven. demoralised he was too, as he was thrust into a whole new alien environment. new customs, new habits, new rules. tough customs, rough habits, ridiculous rules. he knew he has to face it but sometimes it just felt as if he had to throw in the towel. he jus hoped time flies now, though he dreaded it at the start.

is he able to stay strong, against the terrors of his future, bleak and weak?we'll see.

adapted from a friends' blog.

2007-10-03T01:37:00.000+08:00

F04

no one failed in f04 any module. and i was th bloody first one during second semester. great, now i fail one more = more distant.
and as i recall CCTA.

oh yeah about ccta.
no more charmaine to copy (refer)
no more wisna (com'on focus!)
ehh whats his name. =/ "qinhan twin" to do my bioreactor.
no more P03 encoragement and noise.
no more REPEATER -repeatouirs- haha (sam xing hua cheryl swee yin and ck)
darn i am so 'on-my-own' needa survive now.
shiet.

BITCH! ~~susan lee.~~

oyeah i am currently reading:

Since intracellular metabolite pool of a leaky cell in a dense population will reach equilibrium with the surrounding medium, solutions include:
Capillary technique to create a locally enriched environment.
Microdrop technique.
Feeder layer - addition of conditioned medium.

frm th chapter : Cloning and characterization of cells

srsly i wanna cry.
its not because of its long content.
bt,

suddenly i feel so stupid and dumb for repeating this module :(
seriously.
-

team DEVLIN in full force. (= love them.

doesnt she looks good?
carrying MY crumpler?!
please note. tht its mine! hor stalker! =D

happy birthday babe! finally legal but i cant believe.
u were high on just a bottle.
=/ best part u were full and i dint eat anything for dinner =S and nthing happened to me.

BTT tmr. MUST PASS!

2007-09-29T00:50:00.000+08:00

i miss them

i miss my class (mates)

damnit.
if only i studied harder.

wth is wrong with my feelings and thoughts.
this' terrible.

2007-09-25T22:28:00.000+08:00

CAPS INDIA (MALAYSIA) :

my motivation during cp.

suppose to be up long ago bt i just receive it
yup,

sa and laura.
they share th same birthday and they're an old couple. Haha. bt srsly, damn long.

2007-09-21T16:30:00.000+08:00

CAPS india over.

and i realised how much i miss sprinting :(
~~eh not th sea sick part arh!~~
everything's alright i suppose. damn shiok canoeing in th open sea. thts what i love abt sprinting trainings.

if only i can choose hybrid once more. thnks to you know who.

anyway i saw my next semester time table. its slacker then last semester.
i cant vow (cause i knw i can never carry them) but i'll sincerly promise myself not to screw up CCTA once more. yup, tht module i repeated.
thinking abt it. i deserve repeating it.
i wont let my CCTA end up like my OC. a mistake i hugely regret.
fancy getting a freaking D for a repeated module is super annoying and demoralising.
argh. studies are never good for me. now, cca i am quite lagging i feel.
thnks to my water phobia.

i dont knw whats good for me anymore.
or shld i say whats my potential.
maybe i shld just go and die.
th world and everyone will be living better off without me.

2007-09-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

i dont knw how to settle anything anymore
its like, i just lose it. every single thing.
my 100% is never anyones' acknowledgement or praise.
and for tht i get swallowed up in my own self pity.
how pathetic.
no wonder whatever i fight for, always end up useless.

i've let you down on so many occasions despite what you told me. i dont know how to redeem myself anymore. it only gets worst every single time.

2007-09-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

canoeing makes me have sexy legs! :) check out those blue-blacks while doing rolling YO! haha.. its my right leg 7 as shown. pls pls 4 more on th tighs. plus plus PLUS left legs haha 5! HUGE ONES! thnks atiqah FOR PRESSING THEM! $%^&

why are you doing this? :(
dont hold me back anymore.

2007-09-10T23:47:00.001+08:00

hannah~ honoured tht u saw me training but it must be super unglam
=X totally.
and happy 19th gracia! (momo!)

ok reason for blogging.
i almost died 4-5 times today.
in case i really drown.. thts quite ok nvm

but srsly th new spray skirt omg damn hard to take out.
imagine capsizing in th middle of th pool so damn deep! sinking paddle (spoilt)! dont knw hand roll! and worst phobia of water as i am not a very good swimmer!
can die~! actually i can hold my breath for 15 secs in water but dont knw why, whenever i capsized..
3 secs and i go AHHHHH!
cant find paddle die! and kana capsized th other way and i dont knw 360 turn even worst. my specs floats instead of getting plastered against my face =/
drinking like ~~gallons~~ ok mouthful of ~~salt~~ water. rawrr..
i will master rollings! hand paddle 360 720 1240 degree i ALL LEARN!

tsk training is not bad its just th capsizing and rolling back up.
:( damn freaking irritated!
roll linette ROLLLLL! and stop having ur backside on th spray skirt. grrrr.
actually its damn paiseh i was sooooo f*ck nervous wall roll also cannot.but srsly all i can think of is damnit i am dying. why th water so blurr cant see!? paddle!!!
no EJECT! damn usless pls.

hand ROLLING IS IMPORTANT IN CASE U HAVE A FU*K UP PADDLE!

shall end of with a pic of MY TEAM!

proud of them all! DEVLIN YO!

2007-09-08T00:34:00.001+08:00

with sharp and sa.

with sitting partner wei wei.

-
HAPPY WHOOPING BIRTHDAY TO SA LAURA AND CORRINE!
19TH 17TH 18TH Respectively.

nice meeting up..
tsk i cant drink for NUTS and i cant play broken telephone =/ damn.
pictures aint with me.. will upload when i have them

found this pica.
spot me~!! (:

good'ld talks are great.
i knw i can be a bastard bt still :X
ahwells.
need to head to paris ris sometime soon to get a replacement.

~~seriously.~~
:(

2007-08-27T15:53:00.000+08:00

national champ's over and it was terribly fucked up.

anyway, saw some ex-sacians. frm my batch and th batch which i grad with.
ah-ha who wld have known they joined canoe polo too?
but in temasek poly.
saw one ex-4/8ian frm my batch.think she's frm MRL last time she played against th Monsters. HAHA

oh,i didnt know so many knws about it =X including she! HAHAA.
so embrassing please.

miss those days. and i swear. those days were th best years/days of my life.
i miss 2004.

2007-08-04T23:49:00.000+08:00

bye~

will be back, soon.
:)

wait~
ngee ann poly, taught me:

really,
till then.

2007-07-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

i was studying ccta and i came across :

=(

better stop here before things gets too emotional.

-
irritating and irresponsible tutor.
go and die~

-
damn ccta and mmb.
fuckingly annoying pissing shittingly uninspirational.
Dr New is nice and i feel bad if i dont do well~ argh.
i am so goddamnit dead.

re-test(s) or not. they are just as @#$%^&*()*&^%$ RAWR!
i need a break. frm my notes.
BUT, i have not started even flipping them.
WHAT AN IRONY!

again.
linette please, for god haven sake. START STUDYING AND STOP PLAYING ARD!
but then, i think there is srsly something wrong with ur brain.
it stores less then 0.01 MB and its speed is only 0.9 Mbps
you shld be a typewrite instead :s

1 AUG CCTA PRAC re-test. kids' studehh!
no more 1/25 or 2/25
..

2007-07-23T23:15:00.000+08:00

rawr~
i am equally screwed for studies and cca!!
-
DAMN CCTA! this credit goes to the lecturer too.

-

OC was alright. went Sam's place.
i swear her expression was classic. man. now, i knw how i look like last yr when 'the babies' surprised me.
anyway wenesday, mmb damn it. better chiong tmr..
thanks god no training.

off for ccta. bloody #@$%^& forget it. just focus. well at least, my beer fermented was nice tasting. it better be nice. i PAID for my 'supposed to be recycled- bioreactor.'

exams are coming. argh work hard! no more 1.4 for gpa!!

happy 18th birthday to sam sexy! (haha i type exactly whats written on my hp)
happy 20th birthday to PANG the man!

it aint only you. but i'll promise you, we'll walk this together. brace yourself.
its a new environment, life etc. give urself a chance :)
we'll.

2007-07-21T17:50:00.000+08:00

I CANNOT GET OVER WITH MY CAPSIZING!

DAMN. NO ONE WAS AROUND ME AND YET...

:(

-
unstable boat = unstable life.

capsized boat = screwed life.

unable to flip/roll yourself up thus ejecting out = refusing to purse matters anymore, giving up.

so now what? linette.

2007-07-17T00:44:00.000+08:00

what the ...

but,
i expected it.
and u aint dangerous.

still, damn cute :))

-

damn,
i am getting old and its hard catching up.
and srsly,
i hate talking to replica(s).

fuck. why am i feeling annoyed?!

2007-07-12T21:00:00.000+08:00

instead of gyming, tanning session.
monday, self train tues,polo wenesday, combine land thurs, self train cum tanning fri(tmr) night cycling sat, polo.

ENRIQUE IGLESIAS
"Do You Know?"

Do you know.

Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year.
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can't get it to speak
Maybe finding all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give

Do you know what it feels like
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away.
(Do you know [x3])
Do you know what it feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed

Do you know [x4]
Do ya

How can I love you
If you just don't talk to me, babe.

I flow through my act
The question is she needed
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did,
I could never see us ending like this.
(Do you know)
Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that's never happened to me.
(Do you know)
But after this episode I don't see,
you could never tell the next thing life could be

(it continues.. lazy to copy and paste.)

i feel,
TRAPPED!

2007-07-09T22:20:00.000+08:00

edited//

jac's work
funny KID! ;p

competition for polo(25 aug)- game on?

whats your problem?
heck. (its repeating. with different people)
scary aint it?

-

10.14pm
word count: 178

12am: MUST submit to 'turnitin'
holy geez!

10.38pm
word count: 421.

how to get 1000 words by midnight :(

i am improving on campus run.
had gym orientation finally.
paid great attention in mmb.
but i slept till damn shiok for OC

i've changed. is tht due to pms'ing?
sheesh. really wanna know.
guys. i am sorry if my attitude these days/months are getting on ur nerve.
didnt wanna post or admit
but me being an introvert is killing and suffocating me.

2007-07-07T23:24:00.000+08:00

rainy day.

sprint.
4 juniors.
row'ed single(s) t1
bloody unstable, but dint cap thnks god.
(poor elaine ;p)
water was #$%^& dirty.
my strokes suck.
no stamina and,
i am pissed off by tht.
'll train hard.

polo.
my ball is always getting stolen.
i am skill-less.
keeper'ing makes me cock up
second time,
pissing off.

studies.
i havent been focus.
god knows why.
but,
i've been staying awake for lecs
except for aqua.
EVERYONE sleeps.
i knw i can, chiong.
frustrated.

what a life i lead. a pissing agusty kid.
a good for nothing.
now i knw why.

(happy advance bdae buddy~prisca's 19th (: )

2007-07-05T00:58:00.000+08:00

look at cheryl's and ck's face especially. oh man tht occurs when they consume th sour liquid shit.

canoe polo ladies dinner. seniors, top 1st 2 picas.
right 4 pics are taken after training tday.

now you knw. the seniors especially. tsk.
LJ i see u in all pics luh!

aqua and ccbe project die die this week must finish.
MUST! ESPECIALLY AQUA! OMG.
damnit. i lost my momentum in campus run.
but then again. i was half sick half cramping away.

off to ~~study~~ sleep :)

2007-07-02T00:55:00.000+08:00

week 2.

finally got my training gloves and knee guard.
i look like i am going for a war.

thurs, fri and weekends are unproductive as usual.
so much for my promise of studying but at least i am reading MMB like now.
and its boring me to tears.
cant help stop yawning.

anyway friends/buddies/pals. please help.
if i sleep during lecture frm now on just kick my chair or slap me.

pin, pls wake me up for ccta and mmb. hannah and dhuha. dont sleep also leh! very tempting!! wy. kick me frm th back yeap. i give you th permission to do so.
sing hua just irritate th hell out of me during OC lecture PLEASE! so tht i wont sleep. wisna, i will take ccta prac srsly and not doze or stone. charmaine, dont let me copy ur work anymore! i will do it myself frm now on.
(if there are more, kids, please help)
oyes. sam swee yin OC prac better pay attention.

if you guys know. its not that i had lagged of sleep.
its just. nothing enters when i see the words of my notes.
and 5 minutes ltr, you will see me yawning.
even if i change my mindset to sit and mug,
i can rmb everything via memorising but suffer frm a mental fit the next day.
now i am doubting my ability to pass my diploma.
and i can barely sniff or count my days to graduation.

You Are An INFJ

The Protector

You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.
Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.
You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.
You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.

In love, you truly see relationships as an opportunity to connect and grow.
You enjoy relationships as long as they are improving and changing. You can't stand stagnation.

At work, you stay motivated and happy... as long as you are working toward a dream you support.
You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

How you see yourself: Hardworking, ethical, and helpful

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Manipulative, weak, and unstable

What's Your Personality Type?

1/4 of whats up there aint true. ok, it used to be. but not now.
if only someone is able to guide me again.

HAPPY BELATED 19th (1st july)to both geri and shari.

2007-06-28T23:37:00.000+08:00

edited: (just feel like posting pic)

aqua lab.
i am still pissed with my results.shit brain.
//

hello partner. my fellow hybrid-er. finally we can row fast and straight for sprints. and as for canoe polo I WILL WORK HARD TO BE A KEEPER TO BLOCK YOUR SHOTS!! and hopefully gracia power shots too. tsk.

-
weekdays: school training(s) dinner home sleep and th cycle repeats.
weekends: training(s) lunch home study.

i failed 3 modules out of 4.
what am i doing with my life? tht i really wanna know myself.

anyway thnks bert and wy for your advices.
situations keep repeating. but th linette handling it is no longer the same.

2007-06-12T20:09:00.000+08:00

singles go forward,
Paddles Up!!!
6'30 ready?!!
GO!

oieeeeeeeeee.
(names to be censored)
@#$%^ straighttttttttt!

may someone say i am good, i took th single t1 and i dint capsized.

ne-yo,sexy love

2007-06-10T12:10:00.000+08:00

burnt, as usual. body ach's till i cldnt turn when i sleep.
but its damn shiok!

saw alexis pan jac during training.
and they were staring at us as we went: reverse!! noooo turn left!! noooooooooo banging, turn th other way! no mud mud mud! turn!!!!!!!! =/

national girl: can help us take th ball?!
partner and me: uh? ooorrrhhhh
later,
partner: tht not polo ball its buoancy! linette shit!
me:huh?
partner: we are stuck! look below!!!
me:wtf!? how come we are in mud!?!?!?!?!!!???!?!?!?!

happy birthday ck! 18th already eh!

edited:
ps->now i know why i am down with sore throat and fever WEEKLY.
after training (heat plus dehydration) i chiong for?
CHOCO FRIED MARS BARS! now tell me. but DAMN NICE LEY! :)
raffles city's near kallang lar. =s

~~love. a feeling that'll last for eternity? or is it just a commitment and vow?~~
ooh. this sounds cheesy.

NewLife, The Thrillseekers

2007-06-06T21:23:00.000+08:00

paper's alright.
at least i know i wont get 6/100 again. yada, i had only 6% last yr
THAT WAS BECAUSE I KNEW SHIT ABOUT IT.
had 20 missed-calls this morning. sorry pals, i was sleeping. IN DA BUS!
scoots for mmb jialat ;x

if only i could, 7 months ago :(
and 5 months ago :(((
--

Yunling says:
tell you huh
Yunling says:
you must PASS huh
linN-ette says:
it will be a loooooonnnggg day tmr tskk
Yunling says:
otherwise, i call your dad liaoz
linN-ette says:
ok ok ok WILLPASS!
Yunling says:
tell him that you always miss my lecture
linN-ette says:
will do well !!!!!!
Yunling says:
Ok
Yunling says:
if NOT, i want you to run with me, the whole NP campus
Yunling says:
haha
linN-ette says:
erms. OK I WILL GET B for u luh!
Yunling says:
ok
Yunling says:
good girl

HELLO, FOLKS THIS IS CALL THREAT!
SEE WHAT YOU GET WHEN YOU REPEAT MODULE!? AND YOUR LECTURER TALKS TO YOU LIKE THAT!?!! ARGH OC PAPER TMR!
mmb on friday then.........
FREEDOM! :D

it'll be for you tmr :)

my life savior:

th choco is a die for. damn nice! and th alcohol is STRONG.
kopi kao. pang ur fav =) but it has became mine too :/ i drank 3 packets of it and i still felt like...
~~SLEEPING.~~ tsk

2007-05-31T21:46:00.000+08:00

i must be an idoit.
qn) how do u characterise cells?
correct ans. karyotype isoenzymes...
my ans: ER golgi connective epithlial. alemak peng.
linette how smart can you get for exams!?
listen to bert and you go o.O
and i will go early for exams. not that it is a must but to
GET GOOD SEAT. ah neh qiu, do ccbe paper half way i fell backwards @#$%^
bloody chair and bloody susan lee. spoilt chair also let me seat.
tmr will be better. I BELIEVE IT'LL BE GOOD.

-
shirlene see wei pin!!!!!!!!!
&@#$%
but still congrats in getting into pharmacy, NUS haha.
at least you dont need to suffer and see ___e_ (you knw who right!?)
b, you also knw who right!? and you got to face her for 6 yrs! HAHAHAHAHH!.

faster cure, exams faster end. letme go TRAIN!

-
i dont knw why. but i'am getting fucking pek.
rawr! last minute studying. drowning me. i mean i read thru my notes before. but its seems no bloody meaning.
ms wee, sorry eh! always postponing desert dates.
its either i am busy or i am not feeling well.
today it came in as both.
health at stake. shagged me.
i take eons to go through CCBE cell profilation anchorage dependence cell line tube agar dilutions blah blah. screwed! HUGE TIME!
it enters my brain and comes back out.
lets see i am still oweing ccbe e-learning. i knw that shld be handled in, weeks ago. erms, aquaculture logbk. omg so many bloody fishes to draw.actually, i only write th details. my mom draws all th 20 over fishes, prawns, crab etc etc for me =x thanks mummy! sia lar i am in biotech. why as me draw!? not that i am in laselle :/
ok. off to finish reading (at least) all th notes of ccbe. must utilse pin's notes, dang neat, unlike mine. dear flu and sore throat pls go away :( and goodness, after yrs i found out that, i've low blood pressure.
A.M.A.Z.I.N.G. i am going to eat a full basket of livers and supplements of iron =) yucks.

-i still wanna get my tattoo done! can i dont wait till 25? or shld i say. may some nice souls spare me 80 and follow me to penisular to hear me scream? or shld i also say, let me get over canoeing before getting inked.dont wanna re-do it again!
poor child :X fate to meet your ex-classmate ~~again~~

dashboard confessional- stolen