i miss them

i miss my class (mates)


damnit.
if only i studied harder.



wth is wrong with my feelings and thoughts.
this' terrible.

CAPS INDIA (MALAYSIA) :




my motivation during cp.


suppose to be up long ago bt i just receive it
yup,

sa and laura.
they share th same birthday and they're an old couple. Haha. bt srsly, damn long.

CAPS india over.



and i realised how much i miss sprinting :(
eh not th sea sick part arh!
everything's alright i suppose. damn shiok canoeing in th open sea. thts what i love abt sprinting trainings.


if only i can choose hybrid once more. thnks to you know who.


anyway i saw my next semester time table. its slacker then last semester.
i cant vow (cause i knw i can never carry them) but i'll sincerly promise myself not to screw up CCTA once more. yup, tht module i repeated.
thinking abt it. i deserve repeating it.
i wont let my CCTA end up like my OC. a mistake i hugely regret.
fancy getting a freaking D for a repeated module is super annoying and demoralising.
argh. studies are never good for me. now, cca i am quite lagging i feel.
thnks to my water phobia.


i dont knw whats good for me anymore.
or shld i say whats my potential.
maybe i shld just go and die.
th world and everyone will be living better off without me.

Labels: i miss hybrid :(

i dont knw how to settle anything anymore
its like, i just lose it. every single thing.
my 100% is never anyones' acknowledgement or praise.
and for tht i get swallowed up in my own self pity.
how pathetic.
no wonder whatever i fight for, always end up useless.



i've let you down on so many occasions despite what you told me. i dont know how to redeem myself anymore. it only gets worst every single time.

canoeing makes me have sexy legs! :) check out those blue-blacks while doing rolling YO! haha.. its my right leg 7 as shown. pls pls 4 more on th tighs. plus plus PLUS left legs haha 5! HUGE ONES! thnks atiqah FOR PRESSING THEM! $%^&




why are you doing this? :(
dont hold me back anymore.

hannah~ honoured tht u saw me training but it must be super unglam
=X totally.
and happy 19th gracia! (momo!)


ok reason for blogging.
i almost died 4-5 times today.
in case i really drown.. thts quite ok nvm


but srsly th new spray skirt omg damn hard to take out.
imagine capsizing in th middle of th pool so damn deep! sinking paddle (spoilt)! dont knw hand roll! and worst phobia of water as i am not a very good swimmer!
can die~! actually i can hold my breath for 15 secs in water but dont knw why, whenever i capsized..
3 secs and i go AHHHHH!
cant find paddle die! and kana capsized th other way and i dont knw 360 turn even worst. my specs floats instead of getting plastered against my face =/
drinking like gallons ok mouthful of salt water. rawrr..
i will master rollings! hand paddle 360 720 1240 degree i ALL LEARN!


tsk training is not bad its just th capsizing and rolling back up.
:( damn freaking irritated!
roll linette ROLLLLL! and stop having ur backside on th spray skirt. grrrr.
actually its damn paiseh i was sooooo f*ck nervous wall roll also cannot.but srsly all i can think of is damnit i am dying. why th water so blurr cant see!? paddle!!!
no EJECT! damn usless pls.

hand ROLLING IS IMPORTANT IN CASE U HAVE A FU*K UP PADDLE!


shall end of with a pic of MY TEAM!


proud of them all! DEVLIN YO!

with sharp and sa.

with sitting partner wei wei.


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HAPPY WHOOPING BIRTHDAY TO SA LAURA AND CORRINE!
19TH 17TH 18TH Respectively.

nice meeting up..
tsk i cant drink for NUTS and i cant play broken telephone =/ damn.
pictures aint with me.. will upload when i have them



found this pica.
spot me~!! (:


good'ld talks are great.
i knw i can be a bastard bt still :X
ahwells.
need to head to paris ris sometime soon to get a replacement.




seriously.
:(