one word to describle my holidays.
senseless.
now i understand. 99 senselessthoughts =x (sorry for usin' ms wee catch phrase)

when i had school i craved for holidays. now i feel like reading (not studying)
pissing around during holidays aint me but i realise i am doing it this particular holiday. so many things are uploaded onto me that i feel i've became a monster. maybe a computer monster.
oh yeah hannah your prayer e-mail did chilled me down for awhile.
thanks babe for that.
sorry if i am pointless or random in this post. but its just me for the week.(month)
maybe i shld start off with apologising.
to.... erms. erms. you? (hopefully you know who u are) and i wanna say i am sorry srsly sorry terribly sorry horribly sorry. does this counts? but never mind you are leading a happy life and i have apologised. done.
secondly. sms'in, e-mail'in, msn'ing and especially calling are my WORST nightmare. as i suck in speeches and conversations. so to the people out there. please pardon me. and erms. today/ tonight maybe my worst nightmare too. you know after days, weeks and prolly months. frayed nerve here and there. but hey! a reply can do wonders! so yeap! tonight!
lastly. a situation that bothers me for eternity. and i was thinking and still pondering about saying but maybe i should. or i will die with lots of regrets.
to whoever it may concerns again. (sorry i just cant type your name. i have retarded fingers.) you are out there. waiting for enrolment. and i have no idea where or what you are taking or heading. at least i know one's only local. so if u read this please please sms me. you've guts yes u've and i dont. i am fine with that. we need to do something about this friendship i suppose. instead of leaving dangling and heading nowhere. when we were younger we could ignore. but we are growing older and i dont want to see us remain like that when we are older. do you? oh yeah. just to let you know. as i am screwed by everyone especially by tutors and lecturers. why i am in biotech? i'll let you know that its the same reason of why i was in pm.
just sms me when u read this. you shld know who u are by now. sorry if i sound offensive or whatever. but i really dont know what to say.


i swear this is a random post. but its to cover up for the stupid-est things i have done in my life. and honestly there are more. but i wont let you guys get bored by my life.as i already am.

this aint a scene it's an arm race. more like a death race, to me.

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chance upon this. dont know those kids in the clip plus they aint singaporeans but omg they do shuffle well!
mr ong! gilbert i meant! if i can shuffle this well then i club. if you can shuffle THIS WELL TEACH ME! and this includes mark =)

hell nice.
enjoy.

give it to me!

in the era before pin was born.
this is her god grand greatgrandmother. =)

more pictures will be up soon!
plan goes, pin was suppose to meet val. 5pm at clementi.
she arrived at 5.55. kill her please?
met me at 6pm topshop.
met hannah at 6.20 i think where she was highly embrassed. by being spun around.
we were outside pepper lunch/ mos by the way. imagine the crowd.
met bert at bucks. ah pek was f*ck funny! but pin was highly embrassed secondly. yeap she wore the dress in the picca above. went to 3 ppl and said, its my birthday today. i pity her.
met weiyen after that. @ scape. supposed to play 5 stones with pebbles but she sucked. haha val played for her. did butt dance there haha shitty-ly funny!
head'ed to glasshouse. dinner. and haha sorry ladies that me and bert did wanna give up our passion fruit drink. pigs lar =/ and i swear i was only eating a prawn pin shot me a eeek look. its ONLY a prawn AND THATS HOW YOU SHLD EAT IT!
food drinks music and accompany were great! but not the bill.
rotted and burst dont know what outside fish and co. and some shit bum scolded us but hell we care. bum at cathy ben and jerry till it closed.
before that follwed pin to get slippers. her blister were OMG.
and went toilet with hannah, to hear ppl making out.
wtf. singaporeans these days.
have more budget hotels in town lar.
home.
amazing yet eh fun!?
hahaha i still pity pin. its a memorable belated 18th for her. indeed.

lust? oh nooo! NO LUST! my heart will led though my mind wanders. no GREEN tea! just LEMON tea!

understand!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

$10 jacket. up for grabs. anyone? =x
i didnt know 4s2 has an sacian in it. haha a sec5 one too haaha!
anyway yes ms wee! we'll be great rooming partners.
erms. especially the washing clothes part and waking up for school.
hell ya' it will be INTERESTING yet demoralising. (if u get it) =/

screw blogger argh. i cant see anyone's blog. Dammit.


blahh! post post posting of =/ oh and guess what?
march is ENDING :))) SOON!!!!!
not that i am looking forward for school though.
ohman. school SCREWS life's.

a drive of my life and i'll brace myself.

thats sin and me. well. there are more of my ugly pics in her blog. self-locate.

been annoyed yet contemplating things. i wanna take photography for my IS module.
as usual dad was against me. saying i take things the easy way out. and insisted me on taking a language. 29's my selection. i dont know. even if i want that module badly i may not get it. but no harm trying at least right?
damn. how to convince my father esp. i dont want to make a wrong choice again.
may someone tell me why i am in biotech?
ok actually,its only me who have the answer.
anyway yes. from next week onwards, i will seek a better life.
living it to fullest instead of passing it day by day.
i think i am deciving myself. but i cant help it.
too much self thoughts and reflections during a week of lock up.
thanks to fever.
when i make more sense, i'll then come back to blog again.
till then.

patience is what i had. tolerance is what you taught me. and that is more then a word.it'll be proven. i promise.

to you, :))

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eh sin! i dont wanna go out with me anymore.
it'll be either 6 months or when i am attach! haha
fuck! sin, you make me depressed. shitt-ly depressed. =(

butch scan? HEHE!
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i have a screwed up timetable. if only i study harder and not repeat obc. i wouldnt need to drop 2 freak modules! immuology and bio-infomatics. shit! thats for failing obc! rarrr! why do i have to wake up at 8am for 3 days. have 3-4 hrs breaks? ending at 6pm on 2 shit days. omg. what a waste of time. and the worst thing, i dont see any of my classmates! NOT EVEN FOR LECTURES! omg. pray for me. i need enlightenment and entertainment. samantha!!! THANKS GOD WE SHARE THE SAME CLASS.AND WE WILL DO WELL THIS SEMESTER. WE BETTER DO! alemak. =/
trailing off with,







:)))


thanks weiyen. for ur inspiring drawing. =/ peanette next!? haha!
and chomp chomp/ liquid kitchen soon!!!!!!!!!!!


soon to be travel partner. aka whinner =p i have phobia of my bed.DONT KILL!

since i am super bored i'll write something short to my fo4 classmates.
and also i wont be seeing them next semester due to us spliting classes (fish or plants) and i am THE ONLY one redoing O.B.C
in random order:
stella-> korean freak. alemak ALWAYS'll see her on you-tube searching for her long lost husband.
liching-> we are always dreading chemistry. organic or inorganic. and for pw, it seems that we always find ways to 'keng' haha! you and ur mad sp friend. sheesh.
cai le-> thanks for helping me to do ipc last time! =)) and i will be ur competitor for O2 jam. I WILL TRAIN FIRST!
li jin-> i swear i cant pronunce ur name though its been a year. bullying dhuha is the way during lab! =) but stick to bullying him eh and not me! and i miss slacking with u during lectures of cell bio =(.
sherry-> dont wear so short skirt eh! i feel unsafe for you!!!! haha. and yes if i take french for next semester IS please help!!!!!!!! =))
carinna-> never will we go ikea for lunch again. hahaha, we'll go broke fast. anyway have more confident in yourself snd you can do well for your modules! and you've proved it with obc! haha.. see i am encouraging!
chia! (shiqi) -> thanks for introducing me the IT fair job but i never call lar. sheesh. anyway i know u hate taking picca but i still have th unglam picca =p miss you chubby cheeks!!opps!
charmaine-> aie when are we going for bowling training again!? but expensive eh! anyway if've projects, ur house please? i miss the goodies there! haha and yes YOUR DOG AND FISHES! hahahaha.
joey-> first kid i met in LSCT. and we are the east people! i konw i was suppose to join DB but you scare me away! haha. and i am STILL LOOKING FORWARD TO THE HEART SHAPE COOKIE! its been 8 months!!!!!!!!!!
peggy->i miss doing lab with you indeed. anyway dont bully me anymore during bio eh! we'll talk more about food during projects. erms
WISNA!!!!-> my bus csi prison break!! homework bio chem talking listening stoning emoing buddy!! i dont know if we can have bus rides home again!!! sad! =( i didnt know you stayed ONE BUS STOP away from me!till last semester. and yes wisna keeps secrets well! (my birthday planning) and she is one hell intelligent kid as she broke my moss code for friendster. you know i know can already =))))) and yes i know you hate pink and i wont copy ur work that much next semester okie? more to write but lazy. love you bud for everything :))

TO MY LADIES AND 1 GENTLEMAN, CALLING THE, BABIES!
hannah! dhuha! chrispin! valerie!
han-> OMG omg omg i miss you so damn bloody much and i havent seen u for ages! i miss you pk! hahaa and the other time u call'ed me i was so damn bloody shocked! you sounded so different! outing soon please? i miss WEEKLY FRIDAY towning with you. even if its just walking in town.lunching. slacking. finding the other lost pk. window shopping. or just eating ice cream... I MISS FRIDAYS WITH YOU AROUND! i know we dont talk much this holis as u are busy but meet up soon!!! ice cream? my treat! (one scoop only eh!) haha. love you OBS and thanks for 'guiding', listening to me!! :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) LOVES!
mister dhuha!-> i wanna go watch hunting with you. always finding something new and cheap. okgaes its call cheap trills. hahaha.. i miss 'lemak-ing' with u during lectures. obc we are always stuffing things to our ears, not listening. bully han is our forte. haha.just kidding! faster get a bike eh! you are suppose to fetch me and I AM WAITING! sia lar you like owe me a million thing =p hahaha jk but songs jokes i owe it all to you lar!! and yes ur drawings on ur notes. my nicer though...... errrrrmmmmmssssssss i swear i miss you rubbish cheaponess nonsense HEHEEE care to join or ACC me for chem lectures again? haha. DHL days! ARE MORE TO COME!
PIN!-> you are gone mad this semester due to my nice inflence RIGHT!!!!!!???? you better say right eh! haha. shopping partner. towning partner. pooling partner. coffee/choco sipper partner. venturing partner. emoing partner. omg omg we went through so much and thanks for being by my side and listening to my whines. rmb my saying of 3 years yeap hehehh. i swear i have sooooo many things to say about her but you know i know can already =) LOVES!
val-> another thrifty kid. and i must learn from you! anyway thanks for waiting at the bus stop for me before walking to the lecture room! owe you lots. always crapping like mad. eh stop staving yourself ley! i think i can count that number of times you eat per semester! i will never forget the first time i go out with u haha merlion? hahaha. donttake it to heart! and yes when i went to ur place.you look so so so so so so different from normal!!! and yes my first step into k-box was with u (all) it was one heck of an experience. miss going out with you. cause haha u dont shop much unless its birthdays hehee. but woah seh! choosing food. please count me along. steamboat at bugis soon!? HAHA.see u ard! LOVES!
well. thats the f'o4 kiddos.


special thanks to: babies. dhl. pk's :))) loves.

i would rather ignore then bother. i dont wanna be possesive.

jess's table. freaking neat. erms well, neater then mine. and beds! mine's the bottom.



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to my lady, miss p. just kidding haha.
ms PIN happy 18th!
FINALLY RIGHT!?
hope you like ur random mug which included the price tag i forgot to take off.
=x
sorry about that!


anyway had a stay over again at ms wee's place.
town'ed till i didnt make sense as i was sleepy and th time was like erms.
back at her place. was molested, stalked and photo'ed (without permission) due to =p
i think her brother thought i was released from IMH.
ooooooh! miss wee. when you see this remind me to tell you what MY MOM thought of the =p and i wont blackmail you (plus th one that happened somewhere in sinapore, in front of the security camera). i am niceeeeee!
morning'ed, was molested second time due to the yellow bear. wasnt allow to go home even! evil child.
damn.
i miss (bloster and pillow)'s! can i come over again? after you change ur bedspread?
i'll die from isomia tonight.
indulging bed PLEASEH!?

deprieved.

alemak.


MODULE UNIT GRADE ATTEMPT REMARKS

CELL BIOLOGY 8.00 D+ 1
COMMUNICATION TOOLKIT 2.00 C+ 1
INDIVIDUAL AND THE COMMUNITY 2.00 C+ 1
INFO TECHNOLOGY FOR THE LIFE SCIENCES 3.00 C+ 1
ORGANIC & BIOLOGICAL CHEMISTRY 8.00 F 1 REPEAT
TRENDS IN THE LIFE SCIENCES 2.00 A 1



DEPRESSED ah!
BUT.
thats not the bad thing.
1) tough time telling TWO of my old tutors.
2) do i need tuition AGAIN!?
3) got to see teh TEH again. fuck that old screwed bitch :/

happy birthday to jing and shir. 18 and 19th respectively.
thanks for everything =)

Labels: a painful mistake.

i deleted the post:
2 feelings.

-SCAR-ed for tmr shit results. but not that bad compared to the other day.
-I SAW =D's blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg OMG!
BE A GOOD CHILD LISTEN TO YOUR MOTHER AND ENTER THAT PARTICULAR COURSE IN NUS Hor!!! and you'll see more omg omg omg, i am so bloody freaking excited shit from me! =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
BUT, please dont enter the shit course ms teh took =x life science. MY BUM!





not business PLEASEH!

life's been a bore.
i havent been even going out as everyone is working.
but at least on wens i went out with pin and jess.
thanks pin for ur treat at th balcony man =)
and mabel. swimming and gyming with you, i am dying soon.
but we went to the club at the right time! dont blame me for smiling to myself.
the pe- shirt just rings a HUGE bell =)
heh.
anyway i have been telling everyone my house is like a hotel.
and its so damn true. even mabel almost freaked out this evening when she saw my mom.
oh wells. was talking to shari earlier too and i swear i will kill her.

'my house is like a hotel with fucked up parents'
"hotel? with no sexual preferance?"
knn! HAHA! but nice one child. nice one. and i got to say in a way or rather it's MAYBE quite true. (for you to know and for me to find out)
and MAYBE you are quite deprive in a way or rather =x ahaha i am NOT! i am absolutly INNOCENT! i am 1% of your 100% spoiltmarket =)))))
anyway somewhere in may lets go east coast alright. i am sure the time enviroment and just everything will just be perfect for you tehee!
Deborah. dont study too hard for your NUS exams. (there is a purpose for being this random =p)and i was kidding deb, if you see this. study hard but dont over stress.
ok, kids or readers if you dont understand this post. ITS ALRIGHT AND NATURAL.
its for me to suan sharifah tania ..... shiet whats the rest. erms.
dont kill me shari after reading haha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this was supposed to be up a long long time ago.
(taken on 28th feb if i aint wrong)
top to bottom: shar shellen seah (yeap, my old classmates. miss them!)


i finally found the lyrics to this song!
if anyone has it please send it to me?
love this song. man.

Tal Bachman - Aeroplane

i was wrong to keep you underneath my finger
I was wrong to try and change you like I did
Oh I was a fool, I was to blame
And I put myself to shame
Now you and your love can show me the way
*(You gave me your heart and one last chance)

Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
And I, I wont make the same mistakes I used to make
*It was love and evolution
It was tearing it us apart
I prayed for a solution and I found it in your heart
Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
I can fly,

It's true, I loved taking you for granted
I was deaf and numb and blind to who you were
Now I'm gonna show you and you're gonna see
Everything you mean to me
I am going to be there whenever you need
(I'll protect you, I'll respect you)

Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
And I, I won't make the same mistakes I used to make
*It was just another emotion
It was running through my veins
But you gave me your devotion and something in me changed
Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
I can fly

(I'll protect you, I'll respect you)
Now I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
Yes and I, I wont' make the same mistakes I used to make
Oh I feel like aeroplane above the rain
Yes and I, I won't make the same mistakes I used to make

Some questions have no answers
Some answers have no truth
The Truth is my religion
And I seen the truth in you
And I, I feel like an aeroplane above the rain
I can fly


i screwed something up and yet i miss 'it'.
whats wrong with me man.
so many thing are going through my brain and yet i am doing nothing.
if i still seat along for a week, i'll be senile. soon.

oyes. to my 2 old ex-tutors, deb and peishan,
please study hard (which i know you guys will)
maybe i should say dont over stress. =x
cause its gona draggggggg till th end of march.
poor kids :P

a's results:
jess aka ms whinner congrats!for your chinese. A with distinction. fuck smart. kns!
if only i knew you before i took my chinese o's. damn! haha. i will be waiting for your treat! :D (if only it was econs again tehe!)
des and shir!
its relieving you guys finally have your results. (same here actually =x)
firstly: shir FREAKING CONGRATS! AAA's HAHAHA! your wish is fulfilled :))
and its relieving you are staying in singapore to pursue your education =D meet up soon babe!
des you did well too. dont be disappointed. there is still A's in your slip i think.
cheer up. you'll find a spot in NUS. no worries :D
well what a self convincing post.
but kids, its to the next level.
i have 2 bloody long years. and i am still waiting for my freaking semester results.
damn! inspire me.



piccas:

one hell of a night at val's place.

piccas of last night will be uploaded..
SOON.





here is a picture of wei and sharifah=)

jobs.
oh man. what a scary word =/
sad case.
anyway i have watched american pie (naked mile and band camp)
band camp's nicer! and man! i feel inspired to be back in band.
remembering the time when i played the clarinet.
and yes i want all the songs played in the show!
especially aeroplane by tal bachman. i cant find that damn song.
and the song whereby the school played. (the final set)
sweet!
man the songs are damn nice :))
send me if anyone have them. PLEASE!
2 days more to doom haha but then
wellies,
yes. happy 18th to val! =)
cant wait to chiong your place tmr
till i come back..

thanks ms whinner again,for walking with me. i bet you ate that ice cream damn fast. so that rain wont be added on heh!

->i miss someone laughing at me.
{wikipedia, aint it!} smack that! =D