went jeremiah house.
vodka with lots of weird drinks.
mahjong? , i dare not.
blackjack? , i am scared of it. srsly!
cause val sweeyin (i pity her when she became the banker) weiyan.
they rob all our money. (jere.jiahao,ck,daryl and me)
woahhh.
at least i earned SOME!
home, took 17.
man i miss that bus..
took from tpjc. yes (i know i know =x 2 days more!)
passed by my sec sch. and i wanted to alight at my school for 2 reasons.
1) bak cuo mee! (is it how you spell?!) omg i miss it ALOT!have not ate it for 2 freaking years!
2) =))))))))))))) (walking a form of exercise!!)
but decided to give it a miss..
but man its been LONG! since i step into bedok/tenah merah area. walking with lydia at that area is nice (but without a freaking watermelon PLEASE!!!!!!!! TOLONG!)

job job where are you..
please come to me with open arms.
and dont give me a screwed one like...(jessica you know what)
argh

may someone please tell me why am i so nervous for results this friday when i am not even from a jc!? i am not even scared of my semester results lar! kns!
may my batch kids chiong for nus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (as if i am so nice =x) ok SOME!







Artist: Jessica Simpson
Album: A Public Affair
Title:I Belong to Me

I belong to me...
It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you baby
It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to baby
And I won't give up me to be part of you
It's not that I don't wanna have you in my life baby
It's just you gotta know that it's got to be right baby
Before I open up my heart to you
I don't need somebody to complete me
I complete myself (tell me about it)
Nobody's got to belong to somebody else
I belong to me I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me
I gotta let you know before I let you in,
baby That who I am is not about who I am with,
baby That don't mean I don't wanna be here with you
I do I don't need somebody to complete me I want you to know
I'll give up my love but I'm not giving up my soul
I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me (spare me!)
Oh yea
Love don't mean changing who you are to be
Who somebody wants you to be
Nobody's got to belong to
nobody I belong to me I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me I'm one not half of two
And if you gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

this is the song which makes me emo and miss my damn bus stop
(to and from school)
dang!

i was thinking: i need a freaking life!
slept till 12pm plus.
lunch.
12.45pm slept AGAIN till 4.15pm
before i can say 5 sentences to my visiting relatives, i chao.
as mabel asked me go over :))
got to know.. a guy, tanya and another sajc-ian (actually all were frm sajc)
mahjong till 10pm.
fuck and i lost dont know how damn bloody much.
but bert (mabel's bro) was worst. poor boy.
we were quite bored till we were saying how skinny we were but mabel was the fat one :x sorry kid! but i am not the skinn-iest! tanya was like.. damn bloody slim!!! size 22 for waist! goodness!
dancers oh dancers. =x
mabel. thank you for not asking you know who(s) for mahjong sessions if not i'll run straight out of your house.
and your papaya friend seriously and I SWEAR reminds me of someone.
darn!

the more you have something, you expect more from it. and worst. you become possessive.
gee. but was super imginative today as i had 19 hrs of sleep.
de-->east/west. (2 sister chromatids)
me!? -->centromere
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry i am still having my exams mood.
see jess i am nice to accompany you. exams exams exams.
study hard :)

this post seems to be for you. man.. i am so damn nice. still suan me! kns!



look at how bored i was yesterday (ok thanks wy for the pics) heh :

walk rot and bum our ass'es at city hall/raffles place.
life is a bore when you dont see $$ :$
but its better to be out listening to pin nonsense then to emo at home.
and i swear she is freaking crappy. this is those freaking FEW times i seen her that mad.
she embrassed herself 39847247 times man

anyway back home rotting and you-tubing.
watched my shows (sac-ians will know) :)
argh still borrrreeeddddd
and i hate lazing on my bed.
it makes me think too much.
and i realise sleep makes me have weird dreams.
oh man.


counting and more countings of the days i can msn/sms you (go online leh!)
not even meet!
shit life.
but noooo!
wont miss wont like :(((





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instead of heading boat/clark quay as wy legs has beautiful blisters we headed town.
i swear we were super-ly no life.
rot stone and grew spider webs at Indochene.
wy was underage and the person serving us kept staring at her. haha poor child.
3 drinks: something nipple (i swear thats the name of the drink. cause horny ppl drink that drink! (inside joke)) appletini and sex on the beach. (hopefully i recalled correctly. if not.... nvm)
anyway yes!
the person serving us seems to look like my cousin.
but i just cant rmb her name or her features. cant help it though. once a year meet up once?
however its like 2-3 days ago since i last seen her!? omg my memory is failing me.
blah.
okie. i need entertainment. AGAIN!

i wanna drink fruit punch at zouk!! (random me and you can call me waste $$; fruit punch at zouk!? but its REAL nice! ) go try!

-

wanted to head back sac for cny celeb but wasnt allowed.
but it was nice meeting back shari shar shellen mel jiayi ade seah.
good old school days.

but i realised i have changed.
20% for the better 79% for the worst and 1%, i have no idea.
i should not be so flickle minded anymore..
staying dedicated should be my aim!

however,
i feel so blah.
EVERY NIGHT! 4F's??
=x

brother please dont kill me.
i was just BOOO-RED :)

everyone seems excited for the chinese new year.
yet i can never enjoy cny. especially the eve of it.
i just feel so weird?

anyway went tm with jes this afternoon.
haha welcome to the east miss wee!
i will find more reasons to win back my suan's

man. i feel so blah.
i hate stepping downstairs to see my parents and aunts/uncle face.
i hate the look in their eyes when they stare into mine
i hate the way they carry out everything. it just gets screwed.
i dont even feel like eating reunion dinner ,yearly. but,
i get forced to.
see wisna. house(home)= hotel with curfew and rules.
oh wells.

anyway shall end my bored day with some random words:

"No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word

Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You made me believe that there's nothing in this world
I can't beI'd never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me"


-

pardon for the random formal picture. it was taken on the last comm toolkit presentation.
anyway the others are taken by miss wee and me. look at how random we were.
and yes yes. sac and crescent pe shorts. and our pe shirts.
NO COMMENTS.




















city hall-ed and town with whinning partner. but i think i whine more then her haha
ate. (till i am broke) shop. (till my legs are breaking) sit. (till we had to take retarded piccas for entertainment)
omg i really thank god for introducing such a nuaing, bitching and random-ing women.
plus i can suan and mock her,
and she dont mind.
where do you find such a person on earth!?
haha!!!!! opps

anyway mood was destroyed totally by another women and i hate breaking bad news to tutors.
it makes me bad! as if i dont study when and especially this time i did. fuck!!!
ok i need some life..

piccas ltr. thats if, women sends me heh.







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"It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait
Boy you know all the right things to say
(You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real,
it doesn't matter anyway"

i think someone should sing me this song.
to wake me up frm my dreams.
it says my attitude.

i am sorry.
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry.
sorry.

i just love today. exams are freakingly over!

anyway it was v.day today too and yes went out with my 2 hunnies! pin and hannah
went to eat pepper lunch for my dinner and i think 3 of us were deprive.
just stoning and staring at couples holding huge bundle of roses
i was thinking back to my secondary school days. how i bought everyone sweets and wei wei will ALWAYS complain only sweet!? that girl. sheesh.but haha there is a second part! i will spend a 3 digit figure on someone so pardon me. always broke :$
anyway its a quiet v.day this year and i bet so will it be the next.

and yes while we were eating our food. i was chocking on my food due to the person beside me.
haha i just wanna laugh. so yes hannah, thats the reason.
i realise whenever i was my wondering thoughts something of those thoughts will happen to me.
1)when i was leaving home and someone pressed that house door. why must it happen when i walk!?
2) when i was eating i saw THAT shirt which i was :)
ok i think no one understands wth i am talking owells

anyway back to th main reason i am blogging:
ITS GOOD TO BE SINGLE right pin!?
we saw 2 couples arguing in town today.
one of them.. the guy punched the lady and she fell. overturning a potted plant.
it was practically a freaking punched. me and pin were stunned.
the other was like on the streets arguing and i got to say the girl have a super weird dressing.

couples couples.. in these society. sad case
if u love or once love this particular person why do u wanna inflict pain to ur other half's life? despite they were your old fame or current gf's.
it doesnt make sense. do you really hate a person so much especially if you have left a imprint in their heart once (or vice versa).
singapore should introduce:
love education
haha enough of my nonsense.

-my eyes are shutting
-i dont have breakfast and lunch daily.and by the time i come home, my stomach is already digested by HCL. (JESSICA I WANT OUR FOOD SPREE!)
-my brain dont seems to be recalling anymore obc shit
-miss teh just spoiled my mood this morning. bloody shit women.
val and i are going to murder her soon.
-thanks god i am slowly understanding my tutor but tml last lesson YAY! =$
-found out my tutor knows my friend in st nicks. and medicine course is a bloody 5 year course.
i will rot die and stink in there. =/
-all i wana do now is sleep and forget about obc.

and yes i have no fate.
i dont wana see the friend lar!
sheesh. NOT INTERESTED!



-
i cant study at home!
home = computer food tv bed BUT NO HOMEWORK!

i got to drag my lazy bum to school(np) at 10am and nus(2.30pm till eternity) and come home late. arghhhh!
i hate exams.







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i dont seem to upload my class picture.
maybe another day.
off to study now ... no lifer.
and her attitude is getting frm bad to worst daily.

anyway i just found out, school of medicine and dentistry school starts at a freaking time of 8am!
my tutor who stays at toa payoh wakes up at 5am!
and no one is late for lessons (so pin and jes never go nus :p never start the trend.)
omg imagine those staying at tenah merah or worst pasir ris.
but medicine ends early.. latest ending class is 3pm if i aint wrong.
dentistry omg 5-6pm!?
i will die.. when i cant be puntual for 11am class o.O

"Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on"


we'll never go far.
friends?

-
:(

anyway i am taught by a medicine student now. and omg!
i can imagine both of them in medicine! omg i hope they do well in a'levels! go that course!!!!!!!! i can imgine! and yes.
:) dream was to study medicine so yes hope she will go nus and study that. so hope she can =)
omg omg omg. seeing those people studying i felt inspired. and yes i really wana study real real hard now. and hopefully i will enter a singapore university, get over and done with education so that i can close up the gap.

:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
no fate. =(
and i dont like her.
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oh oh! adlin luc and dep if u guys talk to me i will show you the person's picca or friendster!
i found it! shari if u wanna see also can =x you compare! and you see the difference! :) i am not insulting ur _f eh! though same name.
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ugly but nvm still viewable. my hair is neither astro boy or chicken little look-a like!

humpff! anyway omg depressing emo news. but i dont know will there be fate? lets wait and watch!

tml nus-ing. pray i dont get lost. but gee i was reminded of my past. sec1 and 2 i was told to go nus rmb-- tennis tournment. memories there are at nus. my first tournment and scolding was at nus. coach were pissed with a person for throwing her racket. in the end we jog the WHOLE of nus 3 times. its freaking huge. but guess there are lots of changes after 4-5 years? places change but memories reminds.

shall study till i die tml! ole!

tried studying in the morning but no mood means no mood. i can rarely finish a slide (not even a page) of photosynthesis.
damn.
met pin at 3 and wy much ltr. vivo-ed.
pin was ___ shall not embrassed her =p
ate lunch or u can say tea break at carls junior. and i almost died while eating. aiya small stomach. cant blame me.
so yes they somewhat stopped me frm emo-ing. gee....
but when i was leaving.i saw a nice sms. and YEEEEPI!
all smiles. (but not sure yet)
pray pray pray!!!!!
man. i miss hannah and dhuha. miss their nonsense =p
owells. tml and the rest of the days will be a good day!!
(i hope)










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NOOOOOOOO!
i miss that person so so so so so so so so damn bloody much! :(
and i will never see that person anymore unless i call or sms :(
why why why why!!!!! :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
seriously i better stop emo-ing by tml.
and to make things worst,
i kept listening to patience by take that. and YES!
it made me worst.
DEPRESSED AH LINETTE!

i was bored so:

Capricorn - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You are serious about relationships and ready for a commitment. You tend to help your partner attain the success they dream of. You are a rock. Relationship problems don't seem to phase you. Your negative traits: Sometimes it's very hard for you to accept your partner's past. You are emotionally reserved, and difficult to connect with. You expect your partner to take care of you - and make cheat if they do not Your ideal partner: Is incredibly powerful and well respected. Is often older than you - and could be a superior at work. Has a good amount of money... or the ability to be rich someday. Your dating style: Practical. A "get to know each other" coffee date is just fine by you. Your seduction style: Bossy - you like to be the one in charge in the bedroom. Slow and patient. You know that good sex takes time. Calculating. You'll use sex to get ahead, if necessary. Tips for the future: Open up. A little emotional expression is a good thing in relationships. Leap before you look. You don't have to run a cost benefit sheet on everyone you date. Enjoy the now. No need to worry about marriage on the first few dates. Best color to attract mate: Dark green Best day for a date: Saturday

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emoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

3 people in my life said the same thing. but its not due to that i am emo!
its causeeeeeeee.. arghhhh i cant help it. emo bum!

matt. matt. mattew. ok be nice linette be nice.
be nice to him man.
but =(


artist:take that
song:patience

I'm still hurting from a love I lost,
I'm feeling your frustration.
Any minute all the pain will stop.
Just hold me close inside your arms tonight,
don't be too hard on my emotions

Cause I need time.
My heart is numb, has no feeling.
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience.

I really wanna start over again,
I know you wanna be my salvation.
The one that I can always depend.
I'll try to be strong.
Believe me,I'm trying to move on,
It's complicated but understand me.

CauseI need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while I'm still healing,
Just try and have a little patience,
Yeah, have a little patience,
YeahCause these scars run so deep,
It's been hard,But I have to believe in me.
Have a little patience,Have a little patience.



gone,
i am left alone.
and i shall study.


good luck and we have 'nice dates' for v.day :(

anyway went surfing at friendster (which i only do when i am free but i am not actually free currently) and i dont know or what made me click sher chua account. i saw a picture that made my jaw drop. my mom even ask me.. 'ur mouth screw lose eh open so big for what'
i saw a damn old school picture! and it was very very very very very nice!

man. i feel so undescrible now.
shld i stay or shld i go?

FUCK EMBRASSING! i swear it was. (this is about another thing)

-
i prefer goin' at night.. nicer.
but yes i was bored studying and opposite me is a mirror. how distracting is that.
and her house, roomy right? with that plasma which i want. =)
man. she and her brother are always studying. whats the use of such a huge tv owells.
give me lar.
-

sac-ed today. the stuff room goodness its using fringerprint system now. me and luc were like idoits there. and sec1s taught us how to called the teacher out. omgoon. yes goon.
anyway sch is still just as shitty as ever. mrs yong saw me and yes always same sentence.back in sec sch i pissed her off. now i kana suan. humpf.
luc and i self helped to school tour. when i was at level 3 i was shocked. no more study area! i miss that place .. so much memories was built frm sec1-5.
some air con room took it placed. went passed my old class. it seems so emptied.2 years since i left that room. when i used the room it was passed down by 4/7 of course i like man!
shir chua and ade hendricks came back. gee those yes 4/7 kiddos and yes.. it amaze me that they still rmb but heh!!! thingy.
wanted to crashed acc with the sec5s as dep asked me go. but 2 reasons i didnt. yeah lar mdm kee didnt allow. but omg when i saw her face i felt damn pissed. i rmb what she told me at the beginning of my sec5 years. fucker. miss daisy tan didnt even give up and u did. fuck.
i had a bloody b3 bitch. without ur help.
so yes left sch with 2 heart ballons. thanks dep =)
luc had 6 or 7 balloons! sheesh.


anyway ms teh just talked to me. she was 'inspirational' to tell me that i score higher then quiz1 but lower then exams. and asked me if i wanna stop tuition. if not.. yeah lar.
and did you know before that, i watch this dance/skating show. 'skating with celebrities'
each couple had to do two routines. one couple didnt do too well on the first but on the second this coupled danced well however the girl fell while skating. she recovered though.judges were nice to her and said that falling do not affect the score. and yes, the couple did not win the finals. but i learnt something man. yes u fail and fall. but still, you pick urself up and continue smile and go on. its not only effort a person place its luck and faith. in urself that u know you can do it. so yes.
damn, linette you suddenly sounds so inspiring. but yes. someone had always told me this and yes thanks for your believes. maybe its useful for now.
its only a freaking chemistry module and blah.
haha but i sound like i am self convincing myself but fineeee
but i like this sentence that someone used to say
"we all fail at some point in life. its not the failing that hurt but rather knowing that we didnt try our best. as long as you've done your best, lift up your head"
to that person, u'll know who u are after reading. so yes.
so, may everyone dont mind score lower so that we wil all pass together (passing mark can be lowered) =p

i realise i am a faithful blogger. blogging daily. when i should have used the time studying.
linette=nerd?
almost there.

anyway before i leave,i'll leave a smile
:)
for old flame, deb. just feel like.

city hall-ed with adlin dep luc. oman they are as noisy as usual.. as crappy as usual and as everything as usual.

oyes. lab today was ....

tips were as good as none as i screwed it all up.

wellies. anyway met the ladies at 4.30 but we were all late haha. i was standing at the control station waiting and this person keep staring at me. i swear we were staring for 5 mins and we went omg adlin omg linette! wth.

it was hiliarious. dep and lu came 4-6 mins ltr.walked ard marine and in the end ate at food court. but had second half at (shit jess what is the ice cream shop called?) something 'son'. haha

the happy dont know what and my strawberry dont know what was omgl damn damn nice. its a must eat. the choco they give is :):):) was taking picca like #$%^& everywhere. imgine walking halfway we can suddenly stop and hitting the person behind us just t take picca gee-zus.

i think we took 40 over in 10 mins

sent ad to mrt as she have gotto go have dinner. went to get dep ballons. shiet is this how u spell?! i dont think so

anyway yeap visiting sac tml JUST FOR DEP SAKE and nothing else.

sidetrack: frm wisna: go get harry potter book 7. its coming out on the 21st july go shoo go and get kaes! or i will get killed by her jus. kidding (babies u know what this means; haha inside joke)

me and wisna were screaming over msn after prison break. we also had the same thoughts which is OMG OMG COM'ON! omg commmmmeeee on!

ok so yes back to what i saw saying back to sch tml. study my ass off the weekends. and yes this is life for me. cant wait till after exams. million of things to get which is highly impossible cause i am dead broke and poor. pin wanna donate $ to me? dont take cab give me instead! haha just kidding. jess food spree after my exams!

eh then what dammit. adlin is going back aussie land next fri! so fast!!!!! dont goooooo!

i am suppose to write more shit but i cant rmb. lets recall. eh taking appratus count anot?

cause me and dhuha self service alot =) we pay sch fees! hahas. and eh, han babe playing with her water gun!?when we were studying for cb this afternoon ehh.. hahas! pin cant eat chicken and i even forbids her to eat mushrm too? and omg i am talking nonsense.

ok enough of my rattling. i think adlin have 20 over picca that we took! =) send it to me yeah babe!? luc-moussy stop being an ass by taking ur own picca!

anyway to dep adlin and luc. my taste is alright okie!sia lar i'll kill 3 of u for suaning me!

esp u dep! i think =) is nicer then ur C haha! and luc dont go nus! u will spoil the the image of the pretty girls there! bastard man, u. haha. as thick skinned as ever. AGAIN! dont suan my taste. she is pretty okie! humpff!. she srsly is! but yes yes i will be dedicated nt like dep! SEE!

:)

study fishy study!

now both of them are having their driving. and me? still waiting and rotting and dying to even take my basic theory.

anyway realise that one of them wants to give tuition! WHY NEVER SAY EARLIER! most female a'level students are smart and capable. (realise i use the word most and female)
plus the fact she took the chem special-paper!
if u can teach me i wont have a __ nus student teaching me!
haha.
and one of ur wishlist. to enter nus.
dentist-try!? or medicine!?
haha!!
i shld seriously shut up. before i laugh myself to death.
gee.
no body understands, let alone that poor child and that someone i am blogging abt.
=)



i miss the de's. (it makes REAL sense)
omg linette.