ok back for the moment. exams are like starting and prac is this thurs sheesh how will i fare i really wonder when i know nuts abt anything!? and no one is going to H-E-L-P me.. sad case lar. anyway i am down with flu urgh curse the damn virus! haha getting impatient these days. its like so many things to do yet i can still air around. anyway i want to go MOS tml night! shld have ask peiting to get me the tickx but then again i got sch the next day how to survive? think i'll be yawning 3/4 of my life away lar haha. staying there for 4 hrs only siao! nt so free man. ok i realise i have changed my eng lingo but really cant help it. aint in sac anymore and my command of english is getting frm bad to worst. anyway sometimes when i call shari my classmates thinks i call my BOYFRIEND!? sad case its really a sad one. shari pls dont wish that i can be mr TEMPURA! HAHAHA opps! but i didnt write the name there.. but it can be for anyone! =) being evil here.. anyway while calling shari she super super funny. u see i have a habit of saying things like "shari can u dont talk abt this, it reminds me of bla bla blah" and she will go linN not again! why dont u go round singapore or leave and u will love singapore like hell cause of blah bla bla. hhahas! ok it may nt sound funny here but u got to catch the whole joke! then we talk abt another topic DREAMS! how she USED to dream of WHO arh! shall nt be evil cause i myself keep dreaming of :) i DONT KNOW why lar! its scary..i wanted to write abt the dreams but if :) reads opps! hahas so i shall nt :) shall be anonomyus. but shari told me cause :) is always there for me and i will always thing of that person? well nt really i suppose. it aint fair for __ i mean fine __ ignores me but sigh i dont know. anyway was reading __ blog. a sentence? or whatever u call a scence.< actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old; My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didnt love each other any more.
Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old.
So I have to say sorry to you> sounds very cutty but its cut and paste frm __ blog. i think __ story is very meaningful sometimes i really want to say these to __ but there's lots of complications. there just so many things i need to say and do for __ but i dont know where or how to start. esp when __ ignores me. ok sometimes i dont even know how to start a conversation with __ its like lose of words? anyway i am tired. i am sick too anyway. to some ppl out there enjoy ur holi's. dont be like me.. never treasure any holi and now i yearn one so badly. to cover up fpr studies sleep and everything.
thurs> IPC prac
mon>ipc which i will CONFIRM screw bt i wont for s sake.. i dont know why i did that.
tue>microbio i think
wen>physicology i think i cant rmb anything
fri>the 1 beep 2 asshole exams'math. i tell you! i'll do my best and prove that moron wrong.. shit her man keep insulting me during lessons! throw tunderbolts at u then u know!urgh~ ok i am nt making sense.. and i need a subsitute to myself.
byes!

=thanks babies for being there.. and u guys did a gd presentation today!
=shari can u PLEASE dont pity her anymore.. hope u know which her i am referring.
=5/2'05 see u on the 17 june! dragon boat time baby! =))

to all peeps whose exams are here be it jc poly whatever.. thoguh sec sch exams are over. BIAS! government..heh. -good luck!-
anyway esp to 3 ppl. dont think they will be reading this but really. to __ and you good luck. its ur a's this yr.. just strive a few more months and everything will be over yeah.. i know u guys will do well for ur a's like how u guys did for o's. though things may have changed but some,some things will never. as its stay in e heart. you and __ do well. i have faith in u guys.
and to haha YOU! only yr 1 dont get into so much trouble. also being late, pon-ing lessons hehs 2yrs will end very fast. make good use to it yeah?ur first paper's tml if i read ur sms correctly hahas. good luck buddy. we'll go out soon! for the great singapore sale hahs. anyway going to bed now yepp. nites.good luck again! -did i add my exams are coming too?with this thurs math sheesh-
'iloveyoustill__2years 4months days? haha ok too tired>crap.

a little personality i did.
Linette, you're inspired by Expressing Yourself
You've got something to say, and nothing feels better than letting the world hear it, whether that means you're into singing, writing, designing — or you're just the kind of woman who's not afraid to share her opinion on the issues that matter most to her. Why should you try to blend?
You're a bold individual who definitely gets a kick out of standing out from the crowd. Sure, you might sometimes shock your friends with your loud-n-proud statements, but you know they are often impressed by your courage to show off who you really are. As for you, there's nothing better than the rush you get from being true to yourself and the causes you believe most deeply in.
-a little something abt me hehs.. dumb test-

back! i realise i am always very tired during cats class. i wonder why. anyway today was tiring but quite ok heh ate marchie at city hall with jes who embrassed herself dpont know how many million time and!!! made me so many milllion times! first dont give me umbralla! secondly step water whoch splashed onto me! third swing the door which almost accidently hit my face!!! urgh! haha i regretted eating the potato thing.. made me cant try other food but the mango pudding is nice. i bought a super cheap puma shit! only 9.90!!! hehe.can have another clothes to add in my poly clothes. anyway will she was playing the turning machine thing my leg cramp. it was freaking pain i swear. and even as i wanted to use the toilet it was too pain for me to even walk any longer. was hanging outside the toilet.. limping wherever i go. even when i went mabel hse.. slept in mabel hse.. and the bro came back looking at me with the weird face heh! tired lar cant help it. when mabel came back went out to play bball. my shooting really suck.. its like UFO's lar. i think was the lights. but i need more practise. but aft 2 matches i really cant play anymore as my leg was acting up again.it was so bad that i asked my dad to pick me home sheesh. anyway i have math tutorial tml how sick! urgh and i need to collect my IC frm SIR tml. before 1pm. ope can make it in time. my beloved babies wont go for the tutorial sobs but then their math is ok why go right? sorry guys i am always the slow one.. i will study hard! u guys have been so supportive thanks babies!
anyway off to call shari heh!
did i add.. jes mom is funny and damn damn damn COOL?! haha!

its 1.32 and i am still talking to shari!

this is bad bad bad.
having math test this week and i am sick.
down with cough flu and just everything. now i know how __ feels.
anyway thanks hanna for ur concern.
also just want to add here that that i want to thank god for giving me great supportive and helpful friends in poly.
esp towards chrispin, val, hanna and duhua. thank you guys for lightning up my poly life.

so i am back again aft my second week in np.
sch suck its becoming worst.. i never cry doing math but i did it this yr. its the frustration that leads to the tearing u know its simple to some ppl but its just not to me.. i mean so what ppl have different ablilities? if hanna cant why cant i? am i that dumb!? urgh. math chemistry why..
anyway when i was going to meet shari and mel today receive a call frm shari saying she saw __ with classmates. why isnt it me who see? i mean its always my friends who tell me they see __ ok find "nice fate" in my life i suppose.but in the end today i went back to tm hoping to see her but guess its too late.. haha something damn funny happened in the train with mel and shari.. yepp. they went shopping for tan's present. i saw adeline, wei wei madeline and sharon at ps. hmmm yesterday was good also. met up with my old bro ski(peiting) haha and her cliques. we were chilling out at cini got to know some new friends heh ski gf. zann nic and some others sorry girls cant rmb ur names peiting got a brown shirt frm reborn, me too!i really miss peiting man haha she was my closest bro when i was in sec2 talk abt some stuff last night haha that girl is till the same man same pattern. anyway i need to get a burms and some more shirts.. dont want to repeat and re-use my clothes haha i know i must but dont want re-wear them so soon. today hockey was terrible.. only exercise abit and yet i am so freaking tired. legs were breaking.. i know how to drag ball but i dont know how to dribble the ball kanna sia! anyway played match for the last 30 mins. me and harfizah against 3 others. bias right but cant help it harfizah is a CRESENT SCH PLAYER! she know jes and vice versa heh same class what and PON-ING/LATECOMING mate right!!!??? haha the world is so small.
but whatever its i miss __ its just fate for me to see __ one day. we seem so near yet so far. anyway i realise me and my actual bro have something in common.. abt the girls :)

i miss you and still love you :(

Four o’clock in the morning
My mind’s filled with a thousand thoughts of you
How you left me without a warning
But looking back I’m sure you tried to talk it through
Now I say it so clearly
We have been together but living separate lives
So, I wanna tell you I’m sorry
Baby, I can’t find the words
But, if I could
Than you know I would, yeahhhhhh
No, I won’t let go
No why we can beI won't watch my life crashing down on me
As I had it all right there before my eyes, yeahhhhGirl
I’m sorry now you were the last thing on my mind
You carried me like a river
How far we have come still surprises me
Now, I look in the mirror (look in the mirror)
Staring back is a man I used to be with you
How I longed for you
No, I won’t let go
No why we can beI won't watch my life crashing down on me
As I had it all right there before my eyes,
yeahhhhGirl I’m sorry now you were the last thing on my mind
Girl I’m sorry I was wrong
Couldn’t be there,
should have been so strong
So, I’m sorryOhhhhhhh
No, I won’t let goNo why we can be
I won't watch my life crashing down on me
As I had it all right there before my eyes, yeahhhh
Girl I’m sorry now you were the last thing on my mind (on my mind)
I won't watch my life crashing down on me
As I had it all right there before my eyes, yeahhhh
Girl I’m sorry now you were the last thing on my mind
On my mind

:) this song sigh. __ told me something yesterday. i felt touch cause no one said this to me.no one.
nt even my close friends nt even my parents. i will work hard for poly i promise i'll nt let __ down.
thank you.

I STILL >> BACKSTREETBOYS
Who are you now
Are you still the same or did you change somehow
What do you do
At this very moment when
I think of you
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember now
Baby No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everythings been said and done
I still feel you like
I'm right beside you
There's still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on,
I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in the moment
That wasn't meant to last
i've tried to hide it
Can't deny it
You don't even know that I still need you
I still care about you
Though everythings been said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
There's still no word from you
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
That I will never let you go
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
There's still no word from you