Saturday, April 29, 2006
since i am feeling stress and i cant sleep i shall blog abt my first week of poly
but then how can i not be sleepy aft studying so many things? i feel that i am back to my n's and o's days whereby i slack and yet still work hard. my course ppl are super smart but being mordest of course they wont say they are smart right? but srsly i am the worst.i screw up with prac screw up with maths and esp chem. nothing seems to enter my grey matter.. hmm guess like what my lecturers say if u see a spark in ur eye it means ur nerve died.. i think mine died alot due to the stress. its like there's work daily. and i owe more then any other students in the class.everyone has completed their MOL except me! can you believe!? I mean its nt due to the fact i didnt learn a.math hanna also didnt learn but she has finished except me! argh! and dont talk abt the logbk for microbio its like i dont fucking understand what the shit it says?! can someone pls explain whats photoautotrophs synthetic medium or selective medium bla bla blah do ANYONE understand?!pls tell me if any of u guys reading this knows. pls lar how to do when i dont even understand what these stuffs are!? hello its like everyone was once frm the pure sciences classes if nt express classes whereas i am the only one frm na man. when i go home with joey she's always like reading her notes whereas i am always stoning and staring out of the window.. how to study till this extend in class they pay attention even lectures! i think i may regret being in biotech i mean ok my friends pin val hanna duhua dont mind teaching me but i feel super bad always irritating them with those simple qns of mine i feel irritated myself.
sigh i dont know its like i feel so dumb yet i dont want to give up.. anyway for IS class i took hockey for sports and wellness hope i can slack.. its an irony its like i used to love sports and it was my passion yet i want to use it to cover up the time which i "lack sleep"?
ok i shall stop complaining.. anyway sch tough like what i say breaks are 3 hrs or less and we usually go to SIM to eat yep cause its the nearest to our science block. LSCT.. 1F04 do i even deserve to be in this class?
but then how can i not be sleepy aft studying so many things? i feel that i am back to my n's and o's days whereby i slack and yet still work hard. my course ppl are super smart but being mordest of course they wont say they are smart right? but srsly i am the worst.i screw up with prac screw up with maths and esp chem. nothing seems to enter my grey matter.. hmm guess like what my lecturers say if u see a spark in ur eye it means ur nerve died.. i think mine died alot due to the stress. its like there's work daily. and i owe more then any other students in the class.everyone has completed their MOL except me! can you believe!? I mean its nt due to the fact i didnt learn a.math hanna also didnt learn but she has finished except me! argh! and dont talk abt the logbk for microbio its like i dont fucking understand what the shit it says?! can someone pls explain whats photoautotrophs synthetic medium or selective medium bla bla blah do ANYONE understand?!pls tell me if any of u guys reading this knows. pls lar how to do when i dont even understand what these stuffs are!? hello its like everyone was once frm the pure sciences classes if nt express classes whereas i am the only one frm na man. when i go home with joey she's always like reading her notes whereas i am always stoning and staring out of the window.. how to study till this extend in class they pay attention even lectures! i think i may regret being in biotech i mean ok my friends pin val hanna duhua dont mind teaching me but i feel super bad always irritating them with those simple qns of mine i feel irritated myself.
sigh i dont know its like i feel so dumb yet i dont want to give up.. anyway for IS class i took hockey for sports and wellness hope i can slack.. its an irony its like i used to love sports and it was my passion yet i want to use it to cover up the time which i "lack sleep"?
ok i shall stop complaining.. anyway sch tough like what i say breaks are 3 hrs or less and we usually go to SIM to eat yep cause its the nearest to our science block. LSCT.. 1F04 do i even deserve to be in this class?
walked away ]|[ 1:14 AM
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
aw. today's day3 of sch going to sch at noon meeting them at sim bus stop first.
day one suck esp prac work. yesterday thing were slightly better though.
sigh if i knew biotech was that challenging i rather be in business.
the only reason i joined was due to microbio. but its illing esp IPC as i have no chemistry background i barey understand need not mention the homework man. anyway yesterday went out with val pin and hanna to IMM didnt do much and they wanted to get their laptop bags haha then val acted as a merlion haha shall nt disturb her. but when she say she wanted to vomit you shld see the cab driver's face.he IMMEDIATELY stepped on the brakes haha and val climbed onto pin just to get out it was really comical ok i am getting evil heh.
wonder how sch'll be today.. there's practically lots of work to do but i have been home late daily and even if i am early i'll still sleep cause its tiring.. mon thur fri classes start at 8 for me sigh. anyway my classhas only 16 ppl and one pathetic guy haha and thats duhua! poor guy. i stll dont know what to take up for IS hmmm. i really need to be like __ be in love with chem phy or whatever science sub in order to do well.. i'll mug mug mug and strive.. but i dont know why i say all these.. when onces i come home i slack watch tv sleep! sigh..
how to get 4 for gpa with all these brainy kids?
day one suck esp prac work. yesterday thing were slightly better though.
sigh if i knew biotech was that challenging i rather be in business.
the only reason i joined was due to microbio. but its illing esp IPC as i have no chemistry background i barey understand need not mention the homework man. anyway yesterday went out with val pin and hanna to IMM didnt do much and they wanted to get their laptop bags haha then val acted as a merlion haha shall nt disturb her. but when she say she wanted to vomit you shld see the cab driver's face.he IMMEDIATELY stepped on the brakes haha and val climbed onto pin just to get out it was really comical ok i am getting evil heh.
wonder how sch'll be today.. there's practically lots of work to do but i have been home late daily and even if i am early i'll still sleep cause its tiring.. mon thur fri classes start at 8 for me sigh. anyway my classhas only 16 ppl and one pathetic guy haha and thats duhua! poor guy. i stll dont know what to take up for IS hmmm. i really need to be like __ be in love with chem phy or whatever science sub in order to do well.. i'll mug mug mug and strive.. but i dont know why i say all these.. when onces i come home i slack watch tv sleep! sigh..
how to get 4 for gpa with all these brainy kids?
walked away ]|[ 9:34 AM
Friday, April 21, 2006
today went for orientation.. met with karen first then went to dover to np didnt know dover has bus to np anyway was super lost in np plus the fact i was 2 hrs late for my orientation heh anyway i was spending 3/4 of my time wih my bs students instead of the lsct plus the fact i couldnt find them. in the end i saw them 08 grp by chance at converntion centre. got to know 2 nayang girls who intro me to joey in the 04 grp which is my grp thanks guys. anyway i saw my 04 friends and they look super smart haha guess i am the dumbest inside anyway heard frm and biotech friend charmaine ow is in biotech too ahah didnt know that.
but whatever happened today i dont feel good its just.. my emotions? i dont know but things arent going what its suppose to be.anyway went town with dionne today i feel like a town fool going out with her haha
anyway despite whatever i am feeling now which is all negative feelings within me something just cheered me up.
it never happened before __ asked me if i am going for the sch's carnival __ never do such a thing. but then again i am not going firstly i am nt in the mood, secondly no one to go with and lastly i am nt prepared to see __ but dont want to see __ with rt there. i'll be more pissed. even if they arent together i'll give me mixed emotions. and i am afraid i wont be able to take it.
i dont know. all i can pray now is i have a smooth sailing poly life and my life will turn for the better. there's so many things i feel abt so many things but it'll be a long story.
i dont know wth i am crapping nvm sigh
but whatever happened today i dont feel good its just.. my emotions? i dont know but things arent going what its suppose to be.anyway went town with dionne today i feel like a town fool going out with her haha
anyway despite whatever i am feeling now which is all negative feelings within me something just cheered me up.
it never happened before __ asked me if i am going for the sch's carnival __ never do such a thing. but then again i am not going firstly i am nt in the mood, secondly no one to go with and lastly i am nt prepared to see __ but dont want to see __ with rt there. i'll be more pissed. even if they arent together i'll give me mixed emotions. and i am afraid i wont be able to take it.
i dont know. all i can pray now is i have a smooth sailing poly life and my life will turn for the better. there's so many things i feel abt so many things but it'll be a long story.
i dont know wth i am crapping nvm sigh
walked away ]|[ 9:29 PM
Thursday, April 20, 2006
aft months of break this is what i have lived for.
tml orientation my first one! haha ok thats cause i didint go on monday
jes told me the thing starts at 9 to collect goddie bag haha weird man she's nt even in my poly yet she know! haha that girl. but thanks for e help..
i'll be friendly in poly nt having ap be hardworking yet responsible and nt irritating ppl yes i'll try to keep that motto haha. but i know one thing that is i will miss 5/2 ians and some sacians that i confide too.i guess my confidence level will go down in poly sigh.
some of them were srsly my pillar of strength but now they are busy too and i shouldnt distub them with my problems i'll feel guilty.looking at some ppl blogs, my dairy and 5 yrs sch magazine i seen myself grown and i wonder to myself how'll i change in poly.
sch offically starts this monday and i saw my timetable already it suck esp thurs.. its frm 8 to 5 full lessons with the most an hr break!? sheesh e sch thinks i am a machine? ok nt only me heh
well yepp. shall get ready for everything! though i dont know what to get ready for haha i'll really miss alot of ppl esp __ i wont forget you when i am in poly. you changed my life alot.
tml orientation my first one! haha ok thats cause i didint go on monday
jes told me the thing starts at 9 to collect goddie bag haha weird man she's nt even in my poly yet she know! haha that girl. but thanks for e help..
i'll be friendly in poly nt having ap be hardworking yet responsible and nt irritating ppl yes i'll try to keep that motto haha. but i know one thing that is i will miss 5/2 ians and some sacians that i confide too.i guess my confidence level will go down in poly sigh.
some of them were srsly my pillar of strength but now they are busy too and i shouldnt distub them with my problems i'll feel guilty.looking at some ppl blogs, my dairy and 5 yrs sch magazine i seen myself grown and i wonder to myself how'll i change in poly.
sch offically starts this monday and i saw my timetable already it suck esp thurs.. its frm 8 to 5 full lessons with the most an hr break!? sheesh e sch thinks i am a machine? ok nt only me heh
well yepp. shall get ready for everything! though i dont know what to get ready for haha i'll really miss alot of ppl esp __ i wont forget you when i am in poly. you changed my life alot.
walked away ]|[ 4:44 PM
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
tml i'll be leaving for aust though it'll but i'll make the full use out of it but enjoying myself.
poly starting stress arising.
shit
anyway dont think i'll work for my first yr poly. i am afraid i cant cope. i need to adjust to the environment and focus. well gpa 4 here i come.. i'll AIM AIM AIM haha -these words-.
anyway was listening to the songs in my mp3 all sounds depressing.. and there this songs i really want to play on the piano but i dont know how..my piano skills are liked flush down the down aft nt playing for 5-7 yrs?
haha..
daniel powter> free loop
I'm a little used to calling outside your name
I wont see you tonight so I can keep from going insane
But I don't know enough,
I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah
I've been fabulous through to fight my town a name
I'll be stooped tomorrow if I don't leave as them both the same
But I dont know enough,
I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand,
yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
I'm a little used to wandering outside the rain
You can leave me tomorrow if it suits you just the same
But I don't know enough,
I need someone who leaves the day
Hey yeah
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can babyWe can change and feel alright
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
this songs lyrics are like repeating dont know how many million times haha guess i like this type of song..haha easy to sing along.
hmm not going for my poly orientation nt back in singapore yet hope they do not mind plus that fact it complusory ahh nvm hope to get my timetable lapcoat my class and everything on friday..
sch sch sch!!!!!!!!!!! argh.
i prefer my bed..nt even going out =s
poly starting stress arising.
shit
anyway dont think i'll work for my first yr poly. i am afraid i cant cope. i need to adjust to the environment and focus. well gpa 4 here i come.. i'll AIM AIM AIM haha -these words-.
anyway was listening to the songs in my mp3 all sounds depressing.. and there this songs i really want to play on the piano but i dont know how..my piano skills are liked flush down the down aft nt playing for 5-7 yrs?
haha..
daniel powter> free loop
I'm a little used to calling outside your name
I wont see you tonight so I can keep from going insane
But I don't know enough,
I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah
I've been fabulous through to fight my town a name
I'll be stooped tomorrow if I don't leave as them both the same
But I dont know enough,
I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand,
yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
I'm a little used to wandering outside the rain
You can leave me tomorrow if it suits you just the same
But I don't know enough,
I need someone who leaves the day
Hey yeah
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can babyWe can change and feel alright
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
this songs lyrics are like repeating dont know how many million times haha guess i like this type of song..haha easy to sing along.
hmm not going for my poly orientation nt back in singapore yet hope they do not mind plus that fact it complusory ahh nvm hope to get my timetable lapcoat my class and everything on friday..
sch sch sch!!!!!!!!!!! argh.
i prefer my bed..nt even going out =s
walked away ]|[ 3:18 PM
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
i took this frm our sec3 social studies textbook and its under the war and conflicts chapter you know the northen ireland one? heh! the last page of the chapter! haha and i change the words abit. heh check this out.. ok it was my '04 work and i was clearing my file when i found this.
breakup its nothing but a heartbreaker
breakup is always a phrase in our life
broken trust unfaithfullness and misunderstanding
is what cause it to happen.
they say breakup is the best way to solve problems
but lord there's got to be a better way then breaking up
heh i didnt know i wrote such stuffs. wahaha see if only i use the time on studies instead!
but nvm lar my o's results was ok.going to mr teo house gave me inspirations to write this?
aw talking abt mr teo i srsly do miss going to his hse. all the dumb things i did there.. so SOOOO many ppl saw. the friends i made. ooooohhh..miss those days. maybe i shall name those who went there =) hehe i am bored.
frm sac>last yr sec4's>> agnes lau(acting studious always),michelle(talk time mate),danielle,bernardette,lucinda(stop threatening me and dep!),justina ok i cant find anymore. thought there was alot!
>sac 2004 grad (which is same age as me)>> shirley,xue wen,vanassa,baby foo,jill,cherie,phoneix(gossipes,sweets),val!!!!!(ur lil bro and niece),*here comes 4/7..steph ho(sorry for always getting you into trouble!),calista(always with phoenix who told you abt __!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!),constance(the acting bitch up fucker its ok to comment her here),emelyn,karen(she's fucking SMART and still need tuition siao!,regina,vanassa(shir's friend..shir if you are reading this dont neglet ur friends!),bertina and lastly desiree(rmb the times?)see 4/7 best class yet so many come for tuition!wth..heh and AND another class audrey(how are u in aust?),shirlyn,nadiah. see so many dragon babies!!!
>the rest who are still schooling>>dep and cherly is the ONLY ppl i'll recongise. though there was more sacians there but sorry cant rmb suddenly..poor memory
>those frm other sch?>>johnson,(gosh i know you since pri 5),shu ning, one frm tpjc but i cant rmb ur name SORRY!, and finally the GANG!wanting, simin, zhaoting,rumin did i miss out? sorry if i didnt i cant rmb! those 4 are frm cchs agnes..friends spread man!heh!and when the hell will we go back and visit? and our DINNER! yes dinner!
mr teo days...hmmm today's entry'll be colourful haha. but really miss those days.lunching chao-ing. fun fun FUN! yeah..well we have gone our ways if fate meets having tea is also good..
well off for dinner..todays entry really makes me go hmmm.
heh! ciao!
breakup its nothing but a heartbreaker
breakup is always a phrase in our life
broken trust unfaithfullness and misunderstanding
is what cause it to happen.
they say breakup is the best way to solve problems
but lord there's got to be a better way then breaking up
heh i didnt know i wrote such stuffs. wahaha see if only i use the time on studies instead!
but nvm lar my o's results was ok.going to mr teo house gave me inspirations to write this?
aw talking abt mr teo i srsly do miss going to his hse. all the dumb things i did there.. so SOOOO many ppl saw. the friends i made. ooooohhh..miss those days. maybe i shall name those who went there =) hehe i am bored.
frm sac>last yr sec4's>> agnes lau(acting studious always),michelle(talk time mate),danielle,bernardette,lucinda(stop threatening me and dep!),justina ok i cant find anymore. thought there was alot!
>sac 2004 grad (which is same age as me)>> shirley,xue wen,vanassa,baby foo,jill,cherie,phoneix(gossipes,sweets),val!!!!!(ur lil bro and niece),*here comes 4/7..steph ho(sorry for always getting you into trouble!),calista(always with phoenix who told you abt __!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!),constance(the acting bitch up fucker its ok to comment her here),emelyn,karen(she's fucking SMART and still need tuition siao!,regina,vanassa(shir's friend..shir if you are reading this dont neglet ur friends!),bertina and lastly desiree(rmb the times?)see 4/7 best class yet so many come for tuition!wth..heh and AND another class audrey(how are u in aust?),shirlyn,nadiah. see so many dragon babies!!!
>the rest who are still schooling>>dep and cherly is the ONLY ppl i'll recongise. though there was more sacians there but sorry cant rmb suddenly..poor memory
>those frm other sch?>>johnson,(gosh i know you since pri 5),shu ning, one frm tpjc but i cant rmb ur name SORRY!, and finally the GANG!wanting, simin, zhaoting,rumin did i miss out? sorry if i didnt i cant rmb! those 4 are frm cchs agnes..friends spread man!heh!and when the hell will we go back and visit? and our DINNER! yes dinner!
mr teo days...hmmm today's entry'll be colourful haha. but really miss those days.lunching chao-ing. fun fun FUN! yeah..well we have gone our ways if fate meets having tea is also good..
well off for dinner..todays entry really makes me go hmmm.
heh! ciao!
walked away ]|[ 7:58 PM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
i am getting free these days. sheesh.
anyway ever since i lost my wallet its been troublesome?
hmmm i feel like going for the poly camp suddenly.
went town with prisca and met lynn aft that..was at prisca's friend shop chilling out and i bought a shirt frm his shop. had a $8 discount haha!
but the shirt was still ex oh well.
was talking to __ on msn sigh miss talking to__
__ goals had changed. its very different its like no more the good old days and even __
__ was saying me to get 4! for gpa? in poly to qualify for nus. next time haha if i can get 4 everyone smarter then me will be president schloars haha ok maybe i'll nt be so negative but then .. i maybe working. how to study that THAT! hard when i work? sigh.
anyway hope _ 'll intro me the job. i dont know..today's _ first day of work I THINK! heh
For those reading i am sorry for the number of __________ haha but just dont wish to say their names heh u can make out whose who but the length of the ___? ahh! anyway off to take a bath toodles.
anyway ever since i lost my wallet its been troublesome?
hmmm i feel like going for the poly camp suddenly.
went town with prisca and met lynn aft that..was at prisca's friend shop chilling out and i bought a shirt frm his shop. had a $8 discount haha!
but the shirt was still ex oh well.
was talking to __ on msn sigh miss talking to__
__ goals had changed. its very different its like no more the good old days and even __
__ was saying me to get 4! for gpa? in poly to qualify for nus. next time haha if i can get 4 everyone smarter then me will be president schloars haha ok maybe i'll nt be so negative but then .. i maybe working. how to study that THAT! hard when i work? sigh.
anyway hope _ 'll intro me the job. i dont know..today's _ first day of work I THINK! heh
For those reading i am sorry for the number of __________ haha but just dont wish to say their names heh u can make out whose who but the length of the ___? ahh! anyway off to take a bath toodles.
walked away ]|[ 6:33 PM
Monday, April 03, 2006
i did something i promise her i'll never do it again
i broke that promise huge time..and i know if my classmates know abt it they'll kill me too cause i told them i was clear of it
why is my life this way? i didnt expect myself to change that much.
i am no longer myself i am sorry guys..and to __ esp.
very sorry.
i broke that promise huge time..and i know if my classmates know abt it they'll kill me too cause i told them i was clear of it
why is my life this way? i didnt expect myself to change that much.
i am no longer myself i am sorry guys..and to __ esp.
very sorry.
walked away ]|[ 1:13 PM
Sunday, April 02, 2006
i got nothing to blog except for the fact that i lost my wallet and i still owe lisa shuttlecocks? haha. i am tired..
going for a holiday soon!
Australia here i come! going to shop shop shop yeah!
going for a holiday soon!
Australia here i come! going to shop shop shop yeah!
walked away ]|[ 5:44 PM