its still the same though.
shes always on my mind.
damn.
its only 3 months..
if only she can wait for me.
but now..i got to make sacrifices to do well for o;s
really really wish to enter jc.
but how can i when i want to sleep now.

ilove___

i rmb you have this nick..
but..
its too bad..
for ur bf?..

+carrie underwoods+
=inside your heaven=

I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes
I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes
And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing windI wanna be inside your heaven
When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall,
I'll still be hereHoldin you until the day
I dieAnd I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin'
inA soothin' windI wanna be inside your heaven
Oh yes I doI wanna be inside your heaven

ah!
wonder wats happening.
why is -d- so sensitive though she claims she doesnt!
hey this -d- is not her!
for your info!!
perhaps thats how our sch students behave?
but why d a argh.
ok maybe i will listen to lydia..
focus and stop playing!
make sacrifices..

shar and wei wei saw her yesterday at century square with her mom.
sigh..
why cant it be me instead?
is fate playing a fool?

but something may perk me up today?
i saw step ho and christabell at teo/s house today!!!
oh mine.
how i miss them soooo much!
heh.
now i am wondering..
wat if i see her one day..
anywhere.
will i smile or tear.
i dont know.
well.
here i go again.
a.lim is a ass.
got to do her work.
i am "dedicated" to her.
haha

i miss her...wat memories..
so fast.
almost 2 yrs. :(

first..
i apologise to -a-
i got to say i am not really hurt as i yea.
i like you..
but not love..
like and love are two different things.
because all along i have only love one person..
one and only one.
which is ___
so yea.
i am sorry to those..
i used to like aft ___
i dont which to say out the names.
cause...its not embrassing for me.
but its them.
i am not sure how they will feel and react towards this.
i am really sorry.
i didnt expect things to be like that.
esp when -a- send me the message.
but at least both parties are not totally hurt.
sigh...
but its quite obvilous right?
my blog entry and msn nick is usually or her..hai.
so, thats all i can say.
its a crazy week for me.
studies and stuff,
killing me.
;(
well.
i am tired but got to finish the mad a.lim work.
no song entry today cause theres something wrong with my com.
heard my break up song yes though.
have a ear ach.

oh today's ss symposium
haha.
wei wei was funny.
throw the ball when the ball actually landed on her.
but i did something more stupid.
shellen you better not say ah!
heh.
thats what i got to say..

i am sorry.

i feel so cheated and make used.
i shouldnt spell everything out..due to some reasons.
and ppl seems to be judging me, passing wrong remarks.
well. today wasnt the best day neither it was the worst day but..
its just still her.
she forgot wat i told her..
nice job man __
but i made no difference too.
i forgot a little too.
cant really rmb wat i have told her and wat i have not.
never mind.
this idoit brain of mine.
theres a song i love currently..
it really reflect on my life too.

you are beautiful=james blunt

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful,
it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment
that will last till the end

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful,
it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful,
it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

it really reflect on my life man,
every word.
even that 'word'..
if you understand.
sigh..
no one understands.
not even her.
nor me either.
so if you say you know my life..
thats bullshit.

its a bad day.
not tml or yes.
its today..
sigh their anni.
should be happy for them though ..
but i cant.
my life..why?
my head is spinning like mad.
so many things are changing..
just so many.
i cant adapt.
maybe this are all excuses?
anyway, i have nothing more to write.
but i dont want to gloom all day
due to this.
it really hurts.
anyway i sms'es her...asking.
will i be able to continue talking to her and stuff despite
wats going on?
after all she has been really avoiding me aft what happen.
sigh..
but i just asked her another qn.
till now she doest not know how to reply..
maybe ..
never mind.
i miss you.

kelly clarkson=i hate myself for losing you.

I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying
Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore

hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?

You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now'
Cause everytime I think of her with you
It's killing meInside,
andNow I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
And, ohI don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew

hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?

I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
No, no

I hate myself for losing you
(I'm seeing it all so clear)
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
What do you say when everything's said?
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you

hmmm found this song by coincidence.
well it suite the mood for today..
right.
just cant get over her..
i love her...
its going to be 2 yrs.
i never regret the moment i met her though..
its the weirdest way..
this friendship is ...
a memoriable one..
i swear.

well..
these days are kinda of crazy for me?
wat spook me out is daisy tan! argh.
never mind.
i wont repeat myself..ask those who knows.
heh.
my life is tearing apart.
i wish i can do something abt it but theres nothing.
2 days more their one month well
congrats..
ehh
yea.
i feel like covering up the fallen pieces of my live but it seems worst.
everything is not plan according to me.
i am so tired.
cant stand it any longer.
thurs o's orals and fri listening.
but pls..
the main paper i screw it up..
how to help lor.
damn k?
anyway, i still miss her till now and
shelied many times but there nothing i can do any longer.
i am repeating myself..
so annoying.
welll..
going to bed now.
i am stoning. and i have no idea on wat i am typing.

backstreet boys = incomplete

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me
I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess
I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is
incomplete
Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my babyIt’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistakeI
’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all
I’m going to be is incomplete
I don’t mean to drag it on,
but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)
I’ve tried to go on like
I never knew youI’m awake
but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all
I’m going to be is incomplete
Incomplete

same words..
i still love you.. you are not the best canidate though but
you just compete me.

how can i just pretend that nothing is happening yet..
so many things are.
i cant act nectral and just pretend too right?
i have feelings too.
but i can only say its not fully ur fault.
and i am so sorry at this have happen to you.
it reminds me lof last yr.
oh well.
tml theres no sch/.
oh well rest day for me.
i am just too tired.
better do ss.
anyway my relatives are here..
cooking crab for dinner tonight.
oh well at least for once i am having a good dinner.
shall leave a song to end this blog/~

SECRET GARDEN ==BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN

She'll let you in her house
If you come knockin' late at night
She'll let you in her mouth
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
She'll let you deep inside
But there's a secret garden she hides
She'll let you in her car
To go drivin' round
She'll let you into the parts of herself
That'll bring you down
She'll let you in her heart
If you got a hammer and a vise
But into her secret garden, don't think twice
You've gone a million miles
How far'd you get
To that place where you can't remember
And you can't forget
She'll lead you down a path
There'll be tenderness in the air
She'll let you come just far enough
So you know she's really there
She'll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She's got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away


>>its for you esp

well..
its good both of you met.
you both are part of my history.
sigh.
one qn.
how to let you go?
god, pls ans this.
no amount of studies can solve this pro. you know.

ok, me mabel denise and any gal went to tm to eat.
saw prisca there.
its been long man bud!
ah those days.
i miss it man.
no love pro no nothing..
freedom
anyway, then took cab with mabel back to her house.
bought earing...hmmm
you shld ask mabel abt the women who smiled at us.
we were like ..
me:you know her?
mabel:no..
mabel:wat abt you?
me:no...siao lar she.
mabel:then why she smile
me:came out frm woodbridge perhaps.
its fun.

i am lazy to blog.
sigh.
i still miss her.
sigh... they have done so many things together.
yet i have not given up hope.
navie me..
never mind.
i miss her.
i love her.

today councils who were invested..
well no comments.
i prefer the 2003 batch.
this was the day i received the very last pic of you guys.
memories remains in me.