two days in sch felt as it was a week. ]
ahh...tutorials daily.
getting a huge headach, getting mad real soon.
but despite these work i just cant get over the thing yet.
and one thing..
mabel low..i cant believe you know.
and you pretended nothing happen
AND you didnt tell me!
feel like killing you but then again.
i cant do anything abt it.
well her exams are over tml.
which is fast.
sigh 3 months more and its doom time for me.
yes. first day for sch already got lectured by mrs loh due to mye results.
to hell with mrs loh la..wtf man!
stop looking down on the sec5! get alive!
heard who was inside pfa council..
woah...fuk this year one real K-A-N-N-A S-I-A!
all the leaders are pucked!
pls..
no offends..
i think sa nic sha batch was better.
...those in pfa council would understand what i meant.
=)
ok..
the ppl there were nicer..
now its a disgrace la huh.
anyway, i am very tired.
i have not completed my current affairs and i am sure bound to get killed by a.lim.
i am SO DEAD.
my teachers changed to.
sigh.
i want mdm kee for acc.
i dont want the doll head.
but theres no time maybe i will get ah-tan a chance.
-shake head-
also, mrs yong is gone..
sigh why must she leave only now????!!!
why?!
just realise its quite sad sitting two sits away from hui shan but never mind i am nice.
wei wei still suffer the most.
haha
ok i am mean.
anyway i really need to study..
15 points is waiting for me!
but ..sigh.
there csi tonight manhunt tml night and lost on thurs night!
cries.
i dont want to iss those shows but...
i will see the situation FIRST!
buhahahaha/
smart me.
anyway,yep.
going off now.
=)

-hey wei wei...get well soon..rmb to come to sch i dont want to sit alone! =x
-sa nic sha...hehe..sad ar pfa council.
-she__ i got nothing to say. just take care and good luck for your resluts which i dont know when its coming out.
i am still thinking abt you.
i dont noe why.

i dont know if i have gotten over it.
i still just cant accept.
i got to let her go..
its 2 wks1 day for her.
yea it breaks my heart but...there's nothing i can do any longer.
but i will promise this.
if she gets hurt by him, i WONT give him face.
sigh this yr is just the wrong time for this things to happen.
i love you.
I JUST CANT LET GO!
how can 2 wks for her compare to mine 1 yr 6 months plus.
never mind.
i am a loser perhaps.
all i can say now is that,
i only have photos of her to reminds me of the past.
i love her..she completes me.
but she is a smart girl who can make good choices too.
well..i want to tell you..
i will forget abt the lies you said.
we have to move on in some ways too.
i hope we still talk.
dont leave me alone just because of such stuff.
its hard moving on..
i will be like you..strong perhaps.
i will pray for myself.
and to you and him..
wishing you guys all the best.
to her and s...good luck for your jc exams,
next wk.
things really change when ppl enter jc.

"Collide"The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely wakingAnd I'm tangled up in you
YeahI'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll goI worry I won't see your faceLight up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow findYou and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in timeI somehow find
You and I collide
Don't stop here
I lost my placeI'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally findYou and I collide
You finally findYou and I collide
You finally findYou and I collide

this is the song i hear whenever you hurt me.
sigh.
again,
i love you.
i havent gave up on you.

collide-howie day

no comments.

-sorry mabel i just dont have the mood to talk abt todays events.

i forgot to add something.
you didnt see him for 4 days.
have you thoguth abt me?
3 moths!
3 bloodly damn long fucking months.
how i fell huh?
that's how fucking hell it feels like..to be me!
AND!
open ur bloody eyes to look at the date!
LOOK CAREFULLLY!
21/6/05
how long has it been..
you know..

*sorry for e wrods i used. but i am PISSED!

i am back.
just came back aft playing bball and studying at the library with mabel.
oh well.

--whatever you write doesnt really concern's me as long as i dont see my name on it.
i not being an irritating freak by always telling you stuff.
i think you are old enough to think whats what or wrong even if you dont care.
i also mean so what if others know.? cant you be the type who let nature take it course.
and the think and just mind your own affairs?
yea you can write whatever you want and i shldnt poke my nose in ur affair though yea its past but the reason i do so is because I DO CARE!
no point saying all these since you never read my blog.
but pls..
spare a thought for everyone even if its not for me.
but..pls be a little sympathic though.
it maybe history but i still.........

never mind.
i was dumb and still just as dumb to like YOU!
I WISH I HAD NEVER MET YOU EVEN!

so..i was using the days i didnt blog to get over some stuff.
well...ok.
nothing went out of my head though.
still remembring those times ah.. what happy times. esp at mr teo house..
cal she emo cosnt and other sacians esp from her class.
rmb what mr teo said 2 yrs back...when i sat opp her.
made us only go ehh..
those times. memories remains lar.

was reading
ok.
how to win her heart.
1)Just be yourself.
2. Love me the way i am.
3. Be nice, really nice.
oh well i read and i think i didnt qualify for any.
i cant be myself without her. maybe even when i see her i am not myself.
like last yr i will go hyper or mad seeing her.
dont know why too.
hey maybe the sec one.
i love her for the way she is..really i do.
i know she has change ...
everything has change for the paswt 1/2 yr.
but i still love her.
i do.
thirdly..
nice...well i am trying.
well...i apologised.
for...never mind.
i will tell that if i go for confession but i am not a catholic though.
so...
am i not nice to her?!!
getting her stuff for occasions last yr
ok maybe not this yr COS I CANT EVEN SEE HER!
maybe i am not nice in other ways...
like last yr cca stuff.
the 6 things she believe in.
oh pls who doesnt believe in it.
ok maybe if arrangement order it will be diff.
i believe ALOT in luck and fate
commitment..well how can u be committed if u arent even in a relationship!
it doesnt take an expert to teaches me that!
but ..
i 1/99?
know abt the him.
well..
i had always told myself.
if you are in a relationship or even if you like someone i respect that.
like -sorry i wont mentioned much of you-
e other one i liked last yr...well... she's attach and yea,
i feel quite happy.
she deserve it. she deserve someone treating her the way everything should be.
ok enough abt her.
back to she and him..
ok.
u just hope she will tell me without me assuming and asking her instead.
i am tired
i dontknow why either.
its only 12.30 and i have get up an hour plus ago..
yawn.

i wont leave my name any longer..oh well just call me anonoymus
i dont take pride for my name.

damn !
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ok...fine...fark i am confused!
bloody ass!

you know what?
i NO LONGER believe you..
i was right in making the assumption.
damn you!

was smsing her yesterday and i finally understoood.
dont really know why i love making assumptions.
sigh..perhaps thats just me.
i really wish to ans to her qns.
hmmm.. if the world is perfect i wouldnt be in this state too right?
well..hope that i know more abt her still..though it seems we face some same situation at times.
but as u say ..i dont really know you that well so stop making judgement.
well..this yr is actually not my yr to think of such things.
but wat to do? who ask me last time dont study hard?
cant go to a good jc or maybe grad as the same time as other normal dragon babies.
i learnt many things from you too actually.
well..
just want to thank you for ur listeing ear and yea...i have stop that.
you know what is it..

i still miss you

linette

isnt it weird to meet friends along the streets or something like that.
oh well..i havent met anyone yet.
never mind
anyway yep..shall blog abt my holi.
just came back never felt so tired in my life.
actually.. i came back yesterday morning but ...hmmm
beijing was somewat a screw up if not a nice place..
if anyone wishes to go...well i hope you dont unless
a) you can stand the toilet..-no doors and 2 person to a cubicle-
b) you eat foods like rabbit and other weird stuff...silk worm. YUCKS!
the good thing is shopping oh my!
my aunt and parents went broke haha
it was funny...its my first time experiencing it too.
ok..i bought a FAKE nike shoes.
i dare to say it aloud its fake due to its price...
its only $10
k you imagine..?
even in other countries though its fake it still cost 3o..haha
i could probaly buy 15 pairs of that shoe which cost the price of my adidas shoes! hehs.
the clothes there..hmmm..
billabong ripcurl adidas and nike..
it could be easily found there.
so yep..
only paid $3 for those?!
haha...the shopping was great.
well the only thing nice there is just the great wall and the view was magnificent..oh well
so yep...anybody who wants to go china pls take these advices.
i think singapore dirties toilet can be compared to their middle "class" toilet.
the shirts those ppl wore oh my..
a white shirt became yellow.
wonder if they wash their clothes.
GROSS!
even my guide wore the same shirt he see us..and sent us off..
phew.
hmmm my eng construction is bad haha
well..i am too lazy to type anymore haha.
got to face the stress again..
the who;e maths tys and paper2 corrections..ss papers.
well just a whole lot.
bish!

linette

3 hrs towars my flight to beijing.
its at 4.20pm.
this morning just went to watch star wars with my bro..and family.
it was free ..haha my dad company paid so yep.
fell asleep in the first half but then i was awake.
anyway ...i dont know why i am having this strange feeling..
e trip seems to give me doubts.
it seems its my first time travelling though its not.
maybe its some "sickness"..hehs.
well.. going off to check in my bags now.
wont be back till hmm a week..? think so..
ok its only i week...-LINETTE you are mad-
its only a week not a month!!!
haha..i got no idea on wat i am talking.
oh but i will be bringing ss there to do..
theres just too many homework..tsk tsk..
esp mr tan...he's mad!
greee..
anyway take care ppl!=)
dont miss mee..=)...
wah lao when was i so bhb...-shake heads-

linette>>