see shir online feel so happy...
deep down inside me...gutilty behold me..
when tuition...feel lost and empty..
because she's not there any more..
god...help me!
- i cant control myself any  more-
again, i MUST say...
i really MISS des...
god, i am tired and uncontrollrable..
moving on?

hey..
my days just suck! tml ss mock exam..
gonna fail..
have tuition after that ...
dont feel like going...cause, she wont be there?
anyway, i made enemies these few days>
it was shir which made me feel better?
saying a simple hi, makes one feel good..i guess?
yea, saw des today at the donut shop..nthing much happen?
it was like...
ok, i miss her..
u noe tuition times?...shall not bring up the past..
going back to bury myself in those ss books...
sigh..

i am back for the moment.
just want to say something..
des has quite her tuition.. when i heard that i was stunned.
shock to have any reaction...it was too sudden..
it was yesterday..e 21 and 21st means..
liking her for7 months - she acknowledge me-
yea, it seems that i will not have a chance to share that happiness ..
was thinking abt the times we spent at teo house..
miss her....really...alot.. how would life for tuiton vbe like without her?
- thanks to her mom!-
sigh, order the guides cookies ..
it is meant for shir..
ok, now i will just mention names?..i do not want to cover.
life for me is  having tuition  daily..and it is DAILY!
tk those pic for national day...is suck..
i mean, i look retarded!
god..
anyway, if anyone opens my wallet...
they will have two impression...
i am a bastard and a siao person..
anyway i do not know wat else i am talking...
i am mad!.
sorry ppl..but i think i am really one!?

//i will be missing u...for the times we were at tuition esp..//
//shir, thanks for giving everything i want..though we seem apart..u bring me back where i belong//

 

 

ok, everyone is talking abt the australian sch coming to ours..
yea..the guys i must agree they are cute..
but also...there were preety gals too...
esp there is this asian -hwaillian gal- is this how u spell?-
fine watever,some one told me she was not despo wadever shit lar huh..
mock exam for phy and bio is over..
tml is my eng oral , not prepared for it still
that person who like me..is a misunderstanding haha..
yea, but really...i miiss s and d
oh and i found out that all pfa heads are damn chio!!
saw the past year book...and it was like wow!
haha...i think i am sick!..
anyway, i am satisifed with s already!haha..
yea, got to continuing studying?..
sigh miss d?..god!
 

sigh..
so much things happen this week yet so little happen..
-get it?-
heard something unbelievable today...
and till now, i still think lisa is lying..=)
i mean.i do not know that person too..and yet...haha..yea
i find it confusing?...
but then, i placed myself in that person shoes and me myself as d shoes..
i know how it feels..the feelings just suck!
again... i will say..
nothing will replace or change my feelings towards d and s..
esp s...though if one day..one day..
d and s ask who i wanna be with.. it is d..
sorry .. but that/s my decision..
however, comparing s and that person whom i do not know..
i will wait...wait...for s..cause i really love her..
actually both of us are waiting..she is waiting for me to treat her as a friend , as for me?..as a stead..
i really do not want to think abt these stuff now..
mock exam this sat..phy and bio...sian..
n level eng oral this monday..
how am i going to cope?

i am back..
parents got a new car...the way they bargain was like they were buying fish..
anyway, did show for the investiture..it was fun but tiring though
d and s bought stuff for those new council members..
but then i think , no one can replace those old members..
things changes?
yea..i sms d so many times?...but she doesnt reply..
do not know why..
is it is wrong to care for someone though u like another?
oh, she just came online too..msn..
i wanna talk to d..
u noe sometimes i wonder if i am playing with ppl feelings...
watever?
mock exam for eng and acc is over...gotta move on..
i do not know why now i am shivering?..

ok..my bro is out so yea, can use the com
today was the filming for the launch thing..
i found it rather pathetic though i was not involved.
i am not doing festival court anymore ..
they transfer me out..back to av room?
but i am quite happy with it...due to my HAIR!-it is short-
i have to hide..esp from rtc teachers..
anyway, yea i saw her..i called her..
i wanted to borrow hairband form her..
i called out and she was close-by..she could have heard it..
i think she is DEAF cause she didnt reply or simply turn -ass-
i have 8 geo current affairs to do..how nice.!
life is so carefree...yea rite..
spent most of my time with nic and lisa..we learnt a new game..
borrowed cups from drink stall uncle..
he was irritated...ha!..we drop it but thanks god it didnt break..
sher.c and the other choirs gal was quite piised with me nic and lisa..
the banging of cups and our singing skills =)..
oh..i was damn broke today...after cutting my hair...inly had 50 cents..
nic??..had a dollar but was saving it..so i had tp pay and tresaure my $$..bought a comd..for 30 cents oop sch wif nic...whoo...cheap-po!..
now, i am dead ..
my hair is so short and i can spike it without any problem.
damn..wonder if i am going to get caught..i cant ..
if not suspend for 2 months..my exams!
and that nic said i look like patrina...wadever shit lar huh?..she is ugly and she suck!
yea..patrina...stop going to 4/7..is not that i am jealous..but it was an eye-sore..
it is irritating and annoying morever u are not from that class rite?..
yea..flying off soon..got work to do...DaMn TeAcHeRs!..
I do not know whethre i am going to msg her today..but i do not thing so to...yea..
who cares abt her?...when she does not care abt me?..did u ever consider my feelings to..
yea though i am a...i am also a human being ..god damn it!-ok, i made up my mind..i am not going for the confimation this sunday-..
bet u things will b screwed up of i go...
rather stay at home and chill...
if worst , i will ask someone to just take picture..it is still the same rite..freak?!..
everything just suck now man!!!!nice life of my yea? -sick-!