ok,so sch reopens?..
the preview suck...food was just absolutely disgusting!..but i was hungry so i just eat it...
erm..yea had hair spot check this week..patrina was caught-cheers-=)..ha,loser!so amanda abt that incident..
anyway tml there is another reashearl..sian!sch life is just so stress..
oh there was a black out yesterday...it was fun..s hope that there was no sch.
yea,pm..shan jing president..1st vice catherine 2nd vice lydia!..=)..
anyway,yea thats all for the week?..got to study!..n levels just suck!
-freakx!-

erm..yea,wat can i sae?..
sch starts tml..
i havent started my homework..
i do not know what books to bring too..
sms s today,i really miss her..
as for d..i do not know.everythime i see her,the memories still lingers.erm s is going for the confimation next sunday which is 4 july?..at holy trinity..yea
guess d and s will be meeting cause that d church..THE!
anyway,i am bored here?
spending a few more hours of my holidays chilling before sch starts tml..got to work hard n not slack anymore if not it will be my last year here.
yep..thats all i got to say.
s and d study hard yea?..oh,4/3 too...
hmm,do not know when i will ever go online again.
sigh..life is so stressful and it suck!

oh man...dead tired..
i am having tuition tml too...
the preview was fun the pb...lolx..they rock!
carry stuff like shit!...slave!..
anyway really tired all over..eating dinner...!!

hey ..
just got back from tuition..rather early..
dont know if my dad will kill me if he finds out..
but i am tired..really.
after carrying those stupid equipment for pm...a free slave..
they used pm..so that it is a nicer term.
didnt want to join pm but since i am in..i will just dedicate my time to it!...damn pfa launch..
back to yesterday..lots of things happen to me?
came sch...didnt noe s was behind me.
when our eyes met..she smiled..
it is the evil devil my mine which did not reply the warm and beautiful smile..
fuck me and my attitude.
tennis gals were still having camp..
saw jiating...
oh..then during e rehearsal calista ask me to check smthing but i didnt knoe..so i ask d for help.
ha...u shld see d face when she was walking towards me and calista.
it was just so funny..i was -hum cho-..ok grinning.
yep...anyway guess wat i havent started my homework yet!!!/
sheww...=/..
oh...patrina did something disgusting during tennis!..."-puck-"
yea...a week didnt sms s..missing her despite her smiles.
why?
i sms s at last..but she having tuition..
amanda is so lame..=)...-shake head-!..ok..
i do not noe wat i am talking now..lolx!=)
wonder how tml b like?
-shake head again-

today...it was really a memoriable dae for me?
i saw jiating.
for a year..i havent been seeing her.
today i saw her..she didnt change much..
she gave me the stare which remind me of wat happen when i was in sec1.
yep.
the memories...are painful but i swear i wont like her back.
it is painful...esp the dae which we were close together.
saw d during cca.
i think it is better for us to remain as friends..we can communicate better.
but this afternoon..that patrina was so irritating..
kept waiting for d...u noe it is an sore eyes.
when i see someone whom i once like or i like..that farking patrina will b there!
fuck u man patrina.!
well as for me and s..
there isnt much...
we avoid each other as much as possible..
when our eyes met we show no sign of recongnisation?
it hurts ..
i do not know when it will be over..
yea..i misses her..esp smsing her..
didnt sms her for wat?...two days?
it just suck..
tml tech run...
will b wearing berms and black t..
looking like a fool?...under the hot sun..
fuck!.
i do not noe how long will this last.
going to bed soon..
today...3 ppl..
s + d + jiating = memories..

in five mins time i will b leaving home for cca..
i do not not how to face her..later in sch.
guess there wont be much to look forward to.
went malaysia yesterday.
didnt enjoy myself at all.
was trying to get over her?..but thinking of her too..
why must my life b like this?
later in sch...i will be ashamed of myself due to my farking attitude..
esp when i see her and when she return the bk to me.
sorry s.

i have just lost faith and confidence in myself
i shouldnt buy those stuff for s..
it is all over.
i am no longer myself anymore i guess..
linette ___ hope u wont be that navie anymore
bye..

ok..just came back from ss tutorial..
it is so boring and that ms juliana kept picking on me..
the class went home late due to me too..how nice!
going tuition later..
anyway,after months passed..
i finally made up my mind..
after wat nic said abt s .. -i was correct-
s and her .. are no more together..
i guess,a relationship cant last long dueto miles apart?.
s..sometimes it is better not to be so navie.
yea saw s this morning..at the hall link..u noe that one which links the hall and 3/6.
yea..she kept staring at me i think..dont know for wat..freaks me !
ok..
guys,i am just so happy and proud...!!
after soo long i finally made up my mind...whoo!=).
i will go for s ?..yea.
all i need is time...and patience..
though i do not know if she will even consider.
but..as always i will always look for the positive side of things.
thanks u sa sam n rac..
helping always?
i feel so carefree...=))..
yep..going to see how i am going to end my day>..

//s..hoping that we can progress?..=p..missing u lots..and i will be waiting//

guess what i wrote on my dairy was true.
love s but misses d ..
went cca just now..
saw d.. at the moment the feelings just came back
so fast that u do not know what u are doing or thinking at the moment..
we didnt even talk ..
it was as usual...
nothing happen..yet during the two weeks,so many things seems to b happening..i do not know..
saw s walking..
smiled at me.. me and my devils just refused to return the smile..
if i am her, i will get hurt..yea,if u noe wat i mean..
i just hate it !
also when i saw her..the feeling was as normal..u noe the same feelings..
nothing as special as when i saw d..
i do not know whats with me today yea?
however now,come to think abt it..i reget not returning that warm smile she gave which made me feel special and warm throughout cca..
thanks s..
i hope it is never to late to change anything..
some ppl of pm noes abt the ring thing..
sigh...how did they found out?..
anyway, to d..i hope that we are still friends and be able to communicate openly and easily..
s,i am sorry..i did not know whats going on within me?..hope that i could turn back time..
yea, pfa launch..i will b at st anges room ..the rm is suppose to be for the drama 'cirriculum' thing..damn it!..
rather b at the festival court..then can...=)..lolx!.
going for dinner now..
no point thinking and brooding abt what happen today?..
all i noe is time passes so fast when i see both of them..
if only time can be frozen.
yea,really s thanks for the smile..

//do u think my cca president e sec 4 one?..-dont wanna sae her name- looks abit like s? //
//france u rock ! scoring 2/1 against england!-ZiDaNe whoo!-=p//

right..i am tired..
but mayb the word "tired" is just an excuse i wanna use just to avoid things to b done..
anyway..can see that everything is being screwed and everyone is getting stress too..
yep..dunno whats up with 4/3..this year too..yea?
right..i am confused
very confused.
i cannot concentrate...always day-dreaming,and always wondering what do i gain when i day dream..
today..i sms S..
was surprised when she replied..
thought she wont..
but... then again..
it is the memories from D which somewhat haunts me and make me think whether i have made the corrrect decision..i do not know why..
the memories and feelings for D is coming back strongly..
so strong that i am afraid to face reality..
i really wish the old linette is back..
u noe, the plain normal yet nerd looking?
seriously..i rather be a nerd..rather then facing with the tough complexed life everyone is living
however,i do not understand..
if everyone can face with reality why cant i?
am i such a loser>..yea,mayb ..perhaps..i am one..
lastly..i conclude that i do not know myself that well i guess?..
i am just a shell with a lost spririt?..
i am gone...so-gone
anyway..have a song which i find e lyrics meaningful..
yea..
guess the song is right for me..
and mayb to S and D..?

//Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t pretend that
I’m alright
And you can’t change me


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t
Care anymore


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good

Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect//

hey..blogging rather early..
anyway..it is the only time which i can go online..

was thinking last night..
maybe it is fate...which make us impossible..
sigh..wanted to go out them but they have english course..
called her yesterday morning on the home phone..
her mum said she is not home..
mayb it is destined that we are not meant to be together..

to..{27}n{18}..thanks u for always being there when i needed help


//skies are dark its time for rain
final call u board the train
heading for tml
wave goodbye to yesterday
wipe the tears u hide ur face
blinded by the sorrows

how can i be smiling like before
when baby u dont love me anymore?

say it isnt so
tell me u're not leaving
say u changed ur mind now
that i am only dreaming
that is not goodbye
this is starting over
if u wana know
i dont wanna let go
so say it isnt so

ten to five at least we tried
we're still alive but hope just died
as they closed the doors behind u
whistle blow n tons of steel
shake e grounds beneath the wheels
as i wish i never found u

how can i be smiling when u'er gone
will i be strong enough to carry on

miles and miles to go before i can say
before i can lay my love for u to sleep
oh, darling,oh
i got miles and miles to go
before anyone will ever hear
me laugh again//


// I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
to change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

stress^..
today met sam and lisa..
watch harry potter..
almost fell asleep...it was so boring
before meeting lisa and sam at city hall..
called her but her mum say she is out for games..
siao..so early in the morning go n play badminton..
but in sch..
anyway..meet jac and rac later..
went for lunch at marchie..-is that how u spell it?-
took pics at the "durian"..using lisa camera..
nahh^ so fun..
then rush down to tuition via cab..
anyway,from today onwards..i am GROUNDED!
how nice...and interesting..k my life b..

during lunch didnt have appitite..
there was a sense of guiltyness within me.
i have feeling for her..
but for .. the memories came back so strongly..
that i liked her back.

ok...
thinking abt the show harry potter..
i think ..it is a good show?..
it kinda represent my life..
to overcome something..
think positively..
yawnz!!!...
ok..my long story is rocking me to sleep.

yea..got to go..
peace dudes..=)

//i do not know why..but patrina suck more then ever.//
//the reason to change..it is because of u//
//i do not want this to stop..pls do not tell me u r leaving//