today..sec4 had chinese o/levels..
yea they claim that it was difficult..
anway sms both of them today..
only one replied..
yea,then we talk abt the other one whom i liked..
she coulnd't believe that eh, was attached..

anway her class pos is 15..
it is an achievement kz?
from 35 to 15..??!!!OMG~
i do not know abt the other one..

i am afraid...very afraid..
that my feelings for her is coming back..
i feel that {27}...is avoiding me/?..
-i do not know, i am confused..-

came back~...got hell when i went sch to collect results..
my mum insulted ms lim too..wadever shit..lar
she wants me to stop cca too..
saw {18} there..when i came out of 2/2..
i was flaring..
i was so pissed that i walked off though my friend was calling
me...sorry sylvia..
i think she saw me and knew i was pissed..

came home...on the journey,got nag ..
dad havent come home...bet when he comes..i will get scolded second round..
anyway .. i will just chill..
by remebering the happy times i spent with{18} and {27}...yea..

hey~ today collecting results..
i told my mum my results ..this morning
of course,she yelled and scolded me on the phone
though she was working..-oh she just came back-
going to die at 7.20pm huh?..-sigh-..

anyway {27} collected her's this morning..
she said her mum was nagging all along...
then after that her mum went to the flourist to buy plants..
lolx!...

{18}..will be collecting hers tonite abt 8.00pm.
wonder will i have a chance to see her/-sigh-..

today went town..took prints then went home..
i went out like wat 1 hour only??..
anyway i wanna ask her if i can go out
with her during the holidays..arggg...-no guts-..

yea...going to get prepared for my scolding..
and my crying when i go sch..
how sick can the day gets?...
it is so embrassing crying in sch..
esp when they is sooo many ppl?..-shit-

i am back..guess this pass few weeks i have not been myself lately
today watch movie -the day after tml- with lisa ,sam, rac and karen @ marina
good show^ but when i came home i got hell...for going out without permission..
i few like a pri sch kid!getting controlled..wadever shit!
met someone whom i like 4 years ago.the memories remained but the feelings were not there mayb it is over huh?
anyway tml collecting report bk..dying at 7.00pm!..todae classroom cleaning..but i did nothing just slack around =)..sorry 4/3anyway we won the canossian expression thingy ...rock on 4=3..way to go yea?

anyway abt her..i am confused. the memories for {18}, came back..a little feelings came back too .. i do not know.. anyway this fewdays i did not go cca..i feel so empty..i mean the place is so "cold"..without her sigh*
i cant move on i guess..?..{27}..hope that i can get a answer soon yea?..
every time i hear the song -the reason-..i feel like going down on my knee n just cry..
i do not know why>shit>

//i will change because of u ..thanks for always being by my side..haiz but i hope that i can b with u ...but too bad u r attach//

//i feel so small without her eh :both:?//

//the other side of me which u didnt know..i will provre it to u when time comes//

i do not know why...after sleeping all day, my sadness just wont fade..instead i am feeling more depressed.
guess,i still like her alot and and the feeling just wont fade.
i am missing her alot...sigh!

i do not know why...but i am having mix feelings right now.
i do not know what is my problem or mayb she is the one who is having problems.i tried not to sms her but i can't ..
my fingers cannot help smsing her and though she doesnt reply,i still make a point to sms her at least a message everyday? ..i do not know why i bought her a ring when she is already attach. i feel rather foolish and hopeless doing so.
ok,it is friday and it is end of exams.but, i can't go out..i am still grounded by my freaking parents.
they just do not want to give me some space for me to breathe.
anyway , right now..while i am just staying at home and rotting away,i know that she is having a good time out there.
not with her friends but with her stead.i guess they are enjoying themselves out there as exams are over..what is with my fuck up life.
now,i am just looking through all the sms she once send to me.it is very sweet..sigh*- but why must u treat me this way when you are already attach.-..i am just so....arggh!

[-thanks for what you have done for me ..i apperciate it alot.but now,i am feeling bad...very bad.i hope that i have left a beautiful footprint in ur heart.and i will promise to treasure this friendship forever..you will always have a special place in my heart.-]

//~loving and missing you always~//

WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME U WERE ALL ALONG ATTACH ?

ok,i am dead bored here.trying my very best to study but nothing can enter my head. accounts,wonder how shellen can do so well.-shellen give me part of ur brain pls?-=)..anyway i realised this few days i do not think before i act. it seems that i have no control over myself..sigh,what's going on?
english and chinese exams ..i screwed it up,wonder how badly i am gonna fail this time round?..anyway off to study some geo i have tons of topics to cover and i have not started yet!oh my...
i guess for this past few weeks i have been very distracted and thus i can't concentrate..wadever!..anyway i will try and stop msging ppl and stop disturbing them too?

//-sorry..if i had distracted you, i could not help it..i guess i can't discipline myself?..really sorry -//
//-life is full of surprises, if you do not treasure what is around you know, you might loss it-//